I haven't written in this diary since the end of high school.. whooooah.. I have a new one now. leave me a comment if you'd like to see it.

whoooah im at shannonsss and we always have fun over here muahahahahaha I wonder where her cat is... it was awfully loud last night... hahaha wow we went to dinner then the see a movie which was fun... but not before wally world.. which was also fun muahahahahhahahahahahahha lalalala I've not had much sleep... Methinks I should close my eyes for a bit.. goodnight/morning/whatever. <3Emily ps. I like boys

My life is rated R.What is your life rated?

last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!last day of school!!! last day of school!!!!!!!!! aahahahahahahahahahahah! hehe my senior prom is tonight... and it's going to be amazing... :-D

l'oiseau que tu croyais surprendre battit de l'aile et s'envola- l'amour est loin, tu peux l'attendre; tu ne l'attends plus- il est la. tout autour de toi, vite, vite, il vient, s'en va, puis il revient- tu crois le tenir, il t'evite, tu veux l'eviter; il te tient.... ;-)

I was just experimenting with curling my hair from prom.. and I think it is going to look realllllllly good.. or hopefully.. I hate trying something with my hair, liking it, but then not being able to do it again.. I hope that someone will help me curl the back of my head, but at least I know that it can work.. I just need to do it right... AHHHHHhhhhhhhhh enough about my stupid hair problems LOL I am soooooOOOOOOOoooOOOooooOOOOooooOOoOOOOoooo excited :-) I wanna look really pretty for Bruno so he's not disappointed with me... I can't wait to see him ;-) I'm hoping for a lot, but I know that I've been so blessed.. :-) so I am happy with everything right now.. ahhh I'm going to watch the sandlot and feel like a kid hehe wooooo!!!!!

I just got back from New Jersey. I forgot how hot it gets. And how much traffic there is. We went into New York City on Friday before coming to New Jersey. A tractor trailer truck separated from the cab so the bottom 4 lanes of the bridge were closed. but when we finally got into the city, we parked in Larry's work parking lot (so we didn't need to pay) and we walked past The Daily Show entrance and other places onto Broadway. Then, we walked through Times Square, which was amazing to see for myself.. and by the time we got to the Empire State building, there was too much of a line to wait. Soooo we left and went down 5th Avenue and up to Al's Delicatessen (screw the spelling if its wrong).. and we had some awesome food... then we walked the 20 blocks back to the car. It was only about 2-3 hours in the city, but I'm SOOO happy I went.. although it would have been nice to stop and get some prom shoes :-P

I'm off to convention in a little while.. this week has been really good.. even thought it hasn't been much of a vacation... Monday night, well lets just say that that concert felt more like a religious experience.. especially after the encore when they invited Glen and the violin player from the frames to sing the last few songs... I started to cry when they played a medley of (I think) Eskimo.. then LAST GOODBYE by JEFF BUCKLEY (MY HERO).. then The Blowers Daughter... I almost fell over right there cause I was so happy :-) At the end of the whole AMAZING concert, Caroline and I stayed and got some stuff... she got a cd (I think) and a t-shirt, and I got a bag with the picture at the top of my diary on it, a t-shirt with the "Volcano" lyrics on it, and The Frames (live) CD.. which kicks ass! woooo.. I am officially a fan!!! and whats funny is we were the last ones to get in line to get our stuff signed by Glen, and we ended up talking to him for 15-20 minutes!! :-P we talked about the music and he, in those few moments, was so insightful to everything.. just talking to him blew my mind... seriously.. What I never expected in a MILLION years to happen.. happened. Glen told me that he KNEW Jeff Buckley. He was a pretty good friend of Jeff's!!! I just about fell over again right there.. He talked to me about Jeff and how Jeff liked to write alone because he felt his stuff wasn't good enough and he couldn't write well alone. I wish he was still alive. I had the best time.. and im still in awe from it.. and as funny as it sounds, it was religous.

Damien Rice tomorrow. He's going to melt me.

10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately 01 - Maroon 5 02 - Damien Rice 03 - Jeff Buckley 04 - Pearl Jam 05 - Jeff Buckley 06 - Jets To Brazil 07 - Goo Goo Dolls 08 - Dashboard Confessional 09 - Switchfoot 10 - Brand New 9 things you look forward to 1 - being with him 2 - graduation 3 - prom 4 - no more FUCKING HOMEWORK 5 - getting my term paper back (even if i fail) 6 - the summer nights 7 - going to college 8 - convention 9 - singing in front of another audience.. that was amazing 8 things you like to wear 1 - the prom dress I have yet to buy this year.. lol 2 - my yellow babna hut shirt 3 - pink tank top 4 - my fairy ring and my class ring (but those should count as 1 lol) 5 - my new sandals.. cause they are SOO comfortable! 6 - my red wrap skirt I MADE :-D 7 - the yellow plastic lay I am randomly wearing at the moment 8 - my pink silk shirt 7 things that annoy you 1 - my brother will 2 - my sister becca 3 - how I come into my room and any one of my cats {hannah, patrick or samie} is ALWAYS on my bed... grrrr 4 - people that don't sigal 5 - someone that chews with their mouth full 6 - a person that beats around the bush 7 - someone who messes with your heart and head 6 things you say most days 1 - whooahhh... 2 - gay orgy to bad music video {or at least the days that we watch the recent version of Jesus Christ Superstar in Religion class} 3 - hehe 4 - huh? 5 - I love you 6 - go away {mostly to my brother, will} 5 things you do everyday 1 - sing 2 - shower 3 - homework 4 - talk online 5 - more homework... 4 people you want to spend more time with 1 - Lizz 2 - Caitlin 3 - Todd 4 - Antonio 3 movies you could watch over and over again 1 - Pirates of the Caribbean 2 - The Princess Diaries 3 - The Count of Monte Cristo 2 of your favorite songs at the moment 1 - She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5 2 - Amie - Damien Rice 1 person you wish you could spend the rest of your life with 1 - Antonio :-)

It is so rare that we do the right thing, and rarer still that we say it, words being dull and clumsy tools indeed. We live or lives at cross-purposes to our intentions; we injure where we would heal; we abjure and insult what we mean purely to love. The peace among us depends on equivocation, quesswork, revisionism and reinterpretation, and brevity of memory. -from Love Among the Ruins, By Robert Clark I love that.. It really makes you think.. I am pretty happy.. although a little sore from not resting my beat up muscles lol.. ehh I'll live :-P I want to call someone... but unfortunaly i ca'nt because there are no free rooms in the house to talk in which SUCKS but thats life. And my Grandmother is staying here until after Easter! yay!! I love her :-) but she's my only grandparent left.. kinda REALLY sucks.. Well I really have nothing exciting to write about.. so until next time... {Iloveyou} :-)

I can't stop smiling... wooooo I just got into the National Honor Society :-) yay!!!! And I'm smiling for other various reasons... hehe I love you :-)

I love you baby :-)

For the first time in a long time, I feel like I have things kind of figured out. It's a good feeling.. I am almost feeling content. By the time I recognise this moment, this moment will be gone. -john mayer

omgosh... I was working at the house (habitat for humanity) and no one really invited me to go to lunch, so I stayed and ate with the men working there.. and they started to talk about how they think same-sex marriages are ok.. so I was thinking.. hmmm ok... THEN... one of ths guys said that the ultimate insult is when a guy pulls out...... so by this time.. I was thinking OMG get me OUT of here!!!!!! THENN ahhhhh one of them was talking about how there are rules in the talmud that specify (depending on your job) how many times you have to make love a week... by this time.. I was thinking of booking it.. AHHH how fucked up is that.. I thought one of them was going to jump on me... wow... what sketchy men... but that in no way included the other guy.. he was really nice and I was wondering where he was when I was sitting in the presence of these other men... would have been nice to have someone that didn't scare me in the room so that I knew I wouldn't be jumped... lol anyway... its beena long day and im tierd. (as usual.) :-P

hmm I don't really feel like writing.. but i will write what I am thinking right now... damn do I want a good looking prom date that I actually like. might seem shallow.. but I really wanna go with a guy i like as opposed to a friend... is thats so wrong..? blah the colleges received my fainancial aid application today.. *PHEW* and yeahh I am tierd from today.. so I am gonna go.. anyone wanna go to prom?!? lol haha latersss <3 Emily

what a day. backstreet boys concert (movie) on the bus.. i wanted to SHOOT AND CHOP UP whoever brought it... OMG.) then dumb and dumber after that. amazing spanish dancers in peabody, ma. the macarena (its not even spanish.... *SIGH*) quincy market with the sketchy italian that kept looking at me, the HOT hispanic pizza making guy... the octect form berkley that invited us to harvard to hear them sing again, TWO Toffee Nut Fraps, and the infamous HOT SAUCE. fajitas & ritas with the amzingly good looking hispanic waiters.. (YOUR SO FRESH). a walk to remember to top off the ride home. mascara and foundation on my white shirt. finding out FAFSA NEVER GOT MY APPLICATION. what a good day. im going back soon. maybe one of the hot hispanic guys will wanna go to prom with me... LOL... IN MY DREAMS!!!!!!!!!

I'm running off of an apple.. and the fact that it would to be stupid to die of exhaustion at 17... here's a summary of some wonferfully stupid ass things I have to do tomorrow and friday... -thursday- school- econ test I'm going to fail track- running to payson park, drills, then running back (3 miles) + the drills... homework- study for 3 tests I have to make up AFTER the senior retreat tomorrow among other homework like my POETRY PROJECT more homework- a scholarship from YM that I need to apply for sleep- maybe... -friday- school- at 6:45 so the bus can leave by 7 for boston during the day (in no special order)- spanish ballet, Quincy Market, Spanish dinner home- SLEEPING IN dammit im soo tierd.. I want to crawl into bed and sleep for the next 5 years...

just got back from Gift today.. it was amazing.. my group was soooooooo awesome... and we came together so well and so fast. I am exhausted though.. i want to go to bed now.. but i don't want to because i know it will be a school day tomorrow.. and i really don't want to go.. maybe if im sick i won't have to lol :-/ and i have to drive and go to track. BLAH. My Grandma died last night. and there is this whole situation surrounding it that really boils down to my aunt killing her but not getting her the proper care and not letting anyone but her talk to my Grandma... but anywayyyyyyyy i need a realllllllllly big sleeping pill.. found this really awesome thing in someone's away message.. i love it to death! save a horse. ride a cowboy ahahahahahahahahahhahahhahahhhahahahha... wooow <---- sugar/natural emily lol just kiddingggggg i gotta go though.. im going to fall aleep on the keyboard soon if i don't-- *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

I'm off to Gift for the weekend.. I wish i felt like going.. although, I'd honestly rather stay home and rest... which is sad.. but that's how I feel.. I'm excited for this afternoon because Caitlin is driving up and we're going to go out and eat before we head off to Gift.. I haven't seen her in so long, and I need to update her on whats been happening. I'm so tierd I just want to go and rest now.. I think I'm going to go see what homework I haven't done... laters..