Last night something amazing happened to me. Just when I thought he would stop, as we have every time in the past... He kept going.. and showed me that he does want me.. He does. I could hardly believe what he was doing.. *as he reached into his pants pocket..* I'll always remember what I felt at that moment... always... I wanted to look into his eyes, and really see what he was feeling.. look deeply into him to see if I was what he wanted.. but at the same time, I knew I didn't have to.. The amazing thing about this is that it felt so right.. I never felt out of place.. it felt natural.. and I don't want it to be just what it is now, or what it was. I want it to be more.. and really happen.. I want to be his... in every sense of the word. When I realized what he was doing, I was honestly touched.. It was that moment between us where we could have gone in a different direction... But that he would care about me that much to keep going.. and even want to keep going.. I couldn't stop smiling... and still can't as of now because I know it just wasn't something he was saying to provoke a reaction, but something he said because he wanted it.. he wanted it. he wanted it... and I want it too... He brings my inmost desires out of me.. my inmost feelings, thoughts, wants, needs... he knows what is is to feel.. to really feel.. Music means more to him then something to just pass the time.. the melodies and lyrics become feelings.. and also words [he or I] may be at a loss for... I care about him very deeply... I know that is really takes time to love.. but I know that if he would let me.. and if things work out between us... I could love him.. truly love him... More deeply then I have ever loved anyone in my whole life... I can't take my mind off you.. -damien rice