Right now I'm finishing up my gift talk.. its going to be interesting.. considering this is a lot harder then people make it look.. I have a whole book to read tonight WOOO.. and that's not goin to happen.. I hope im not sick tomorrow.. even though it would help me.. being sick sucks, and I have lots of stuff to do.. BLAH.. I need something to really cheer me up.. I don't know why, but even talking to ...a certain person... lately just makes me wanna be alone. Got into Marist yesterday.. amazingly.. im happy about it.. but sad too.. too fucking expensive.. (story of my life) but.. it's not over yet.. so I might as well be happy I got in. It's funny.. about this time last year, I was in the same place.. but chose the same person again.. this time.. I don't have that person in the same place in my heart anymore.. and he doesn't even know it.. ahh fuck. rule number 2: don't be a fool -damien rice meh. too late