Nothing unusual, nothing strange Close to nothing at all The same old scenario, the same old rain And there's no explosions here Then something unusual, something strange Comes from nothing at all I saw a spaceship fly by your window Did you see it disappear? -damien rice I fall in love with his music all over again every time I hear it. Today is going slowly evn though we have shortened periods... I guess its just one of those days.. me.. I'm SUCH an idiot.. I was trying to protect my friend Nate from getting hurt... I just hurt him more.. I know he cares about me, and thats only going to get him hurt. I told him that, (but in a different way.) Didn't go too well.. now he probably hates me. I don't feel worthy of what I have. I don't feel worthy of the friends I am blessed to know. And I know that I am surely not worthy of the love that I am given. When I talk to some of my closer friends, I sometimes feel that I am disturbing them.. that they have better things to do then talk to me.. I know its true sometimes, but I can't get over this feeling. I did for a while.. I saw that people actually cared to talk and listen, but now, I don't know.. I feel like I'm getting in the way of people's lives. Especially someone that I deeply care about. I honestly don't deserve to have someone like him. He's extremely intelligent, sooo funny, always fun to talk to, and one of the most sincere people I know. He is completely happy just getting into a deep conversation with me, or anyone for that matter. And I can't stand the way I feel. I do want him, but I can't help feeling like I don't deserve him. It just really sucks.... because I'm pretty sure I could make him happy... Cold, cold water surrounds me now And all I've got is your hand Lord, can you hear me now? Lord, can you hear me now? Lord, can you hear me now? Or am I lost? -damien rice