What I'm Listening To: "Just To Know What You've Been Dreaming" by Will Johnson I almost forgot, today is Eli's 19th birthday! Nobody knows who he is nor do they care, but I do. I figured I should make a dedication. I love you, my sexy bitch! Grr that pisses me off more than anything...I'd typed out this entry & I ended up logged out. This is twice now. I don't appreciate it. I guess maybe after so long it times out. Well, whatever. It's annoying. Anyway so I bitched about how lonely I am, how I wanted a boyfriend but yet I don't because boys are stupid. Maybe that's a little harsh. The boys I seem to come across are stupid. There, that's better. I want to find someone who will love me & that I can love too yet all of that totally freaks me out. I'm weird I guess...oh well. Today was alright, I slept the majority of it so that was nice. Actually no, I hate sleeping until 4:30 in the afternoon. lol. I feel like I've wasted a day. I wanted to study some more but I couldn't...had too much to do around the house. Oh well, there's always tomorrow. I finally heard from the doctor today, well my mom did. I found out that I have an infection, which is what's been causing the severe pain in my pelvis area for the past, what? 8 months. Actually it's been longer but in those 8 months it's gotten to be more constant & severe I guess. It's not like an STD or anything so that's good, VERY VERY good. lol. I was a little worried about that of course. Anyway, I'm taking antibiotics already so I think I keep taking those & then my doctor is calling in some more so once I finish these, I'll start on the new ones. Apparently it's pretty bad so 2 rounds of drugs should help, I hope. I wonder what it's from...oh well. I'm just glad I found out what was wrong & that it's curable. I think I'm gonna get in bed, I'm really tired & hurting...as usual. Goodnight. Maybe the next entry will be better. Heh. Don't count on it. *Brandi* (PS) This song I'm listening to...download it if you can. It's amazing! (at least I think it is)