What I'm Listening To: "Lover I Don't Have To Love" by Bright Eyes For today to start out so shitty, it actually has ended quite well. I cleaned the whole house, which sucked but I'm proud of myself for doing it. I was going to put it off but it was bad. lol. I accomplished the only thing that I set out to do. lol. Oh well. Anyway so after I finish cleaning I get in the shower. While I'm in the shower Josh calls. I get out & call him back & he says he was wanting to come by. A few minutes later he showed up & it was cool. We didn't do anything really, we just hung out. We haven't done that in a really long time so like I said, it was cool. We talked about a lot of things, the whole situation with Catherine & I think some things were cleared up. At least I feel like they were. He's basically on her side, which is fine. I don't care either way anymore so I did get to hear pretty much her take on it was & Josh heard mine. I didn't say anything bad about her, I mean I just told him how I felt & I don't think there's anything wrong with that. He did say that he thought there was stupidity on both of ours parts...which there was. We both said & did a lot of things that we shouldn't have, that's because we were so angry & hurt, plus we both lack a lot of maturity. lol. No I don't think we could ever be friends again but you know...I feel like I understand everything a little better. I think I needed that. So yeah, Josh & I hanging out...plus he gave me a little confidence boost. He said I looked nice. Heh I didn't, I'd just gotten out of the shower & was in pants & a tank top but whatever. It was sweet anyhow. Also glad that someone noticed I'm finally losing some damn weight...lol. That's always good. It makes me happy. Haha. He was here for ehh I couldn't tell you how long, awhile & then he left. About 10 minutes later Ashley called me back & we talked for a long time. I haven't talked to her in it seems like so long. I miss her, I wish she still lived a block away from me...not in the next town. :( Oh well. So far the plan is we're going to get together Wednesday, which I'm excited about. Plus I get to see Sara (her baby) so that's awesome! We're talking about going to Denton High (our old high school) just to see people & so she can kinda like, show Sara off. It could be fun I guess, get to see old friends & shock people because I don't know how many people know that she had Sara & got married...so I'm always up for that. Shock value kinda stuff is fun. lol. Then who knows what we'll do after that, I figure we'll go eat & just hang out like old times. I think both of us need that right now. We're kind of in the same situation, we don't have jobs...well she has one, she takes care of Sara but we're both kinda stuck at home all the time & we're about to go crazy. lol. Mine is because I don't have a job or a car & I'm usually taking care of the house & helping out w/Bryan. For now that's my "job." Fun. lol. Oh well. I'm in such a good mood, it's insane. I don't know, I kinda felt abandoned by everybody because like everyone has their own life...they work or go to school or take care of their kid & that sorta thing & I don't really have anything. I was feeling extremely alone. Then you know, seeing Josh & talking to Ashley, I mean they called me. It felt nice to be remembered & thought about & that sorta thing. I'm sure that sounds stupid but ever since I quit school I lost touch with a lot of people so my friends are few & far between. I really cherish the ones I have. Oh sappy! lol sorry but I don't know, after I did the last entry about Allan I wasn't upset about it anymore. I also didn't think about him that much today, even though we talked. I think I'm well on my way to getting over him. And that's a good thing. Very good thing. lol. Alright well I'm out, I really need to eat...I haven't eaten at all today & I'm soooo hungry. lol. Night everyone! xoxo- *Brandi*