Huh ok this is going to be a pity party i know i said i wouldn't but i need someone to talk to. Ok so jackies going out wiht joe thats great. BUt mea dn the friends thouhgt she was acting strange so i said something to her about it and we had a big fihg ti cried which i haven't since like forever i couldn't stop myself. Then joe started yelling at me and sayin gi was selfish and that i didn't deserve jackie so i offically died righ there! no one has ever hurt me so bad! If you don't know jackie is my soul mate she is my best friend and the only one who understands me so for him to say that to me is fucked up. i stoped breathing and the only thing keeping me alive is the chance for reconsiliation. but not wiht joe he said somethings i couldn't even think to say to anyone with feelings. so right now im dead. Im trying not to cry b/c i put on a lot of makeup so i wouldn't cry to bad here come the tears. OK so jackie sent me some things like oyur my best friend and she is but i feel like i have been stabed i just hope we can forgive each other hopefully we can forgive but not forget so it won't happen again. well i love you jackie and i hope we are still the best of friends smooches everyone!