wel ima kinda feelin a lil bit betta.. jordz stil nt talkin 2 me n i feel bad coz ov cutting mi wrists agen, i jus cnt help it nemorez, i luv him so much bt it hurtz so bad if only he knew wat it waz lyk in mi position, den d worst fing i stil lov him wid everyfing in me lyk alwayz n im tryna move on bt it feelz lyk he wont let me, i feel reali bad.. i needa smoke or sumin!!! im getin so stressed ot nw n sumtymz i wish fingz cud hav gone bak 2 d way dey wer in d daez wen i hada bf n wen me n jordz wer jus m8z, y do guyz alwayz fuk me up it hurts so bad.. duz it mke dem laugh wen im in pain, do dey kno i hav depression, do dey kno wat itz lyk 2 look in d mirror everydae n u fink ur gettin uglier az ppl dis u.. i wish i cud hav u bak jordz bt i gez itz in posible jus memba dem emailz i sent u. i stil gt d 1z u sent me bak in d daez wen u wer nice 2 me bt it al gud il try gt ova it coz i kno il hav 2 soona or later bt i shud b ok bt yea im kinda sleepi so ima write anuda entry 2mowo k!!