It's a fucking boring sunday. I'm anxious today as well, I feel like I should be doing something, but I'm not and this is aggravatingly frustrating! School is fucking busy, so much so that I have to stay in the city monday to wednesday to be caught up with everything; but on the upside i'm learning to rollerskate, I skated for two and a half hours last night and it was marvelous! next week I'm going to go faster:), I feel like such a child when I say this as to the issue that I never learned to skate. This coming from the girl who didnt learn to ride a bike (without training wheels) until age eleven!!! My Boyfriend is reading this while I type it over my shoulder, which I told him I fucking HATE!!! sooo bored, i've been thinking about editing this page for a few days now, it slips out of my mind completely from time to time

I woke up this morning and made plans, plans that involved a visit to the gym where I am a member, and plans that also involved job hunting, but then the sky turned grey, and that put me in the most dismal of all dismal moods. I watched Spider Baby today, from 1968 directed by Jack Hill. I am in love with this movie, it is so well done! from the casting, to the dialogue everything was seamless! also Sid Haig was such a cutie when he was younger! My Interview with Jessa from Rue morgue is on wednesday, I have to get this internship, it's all i talk/think/dream about! it would be so amazing to work with people who also have not only a love but an obsession with the genre as I do. So, I am sitting cross-legged on my computer chair, drinking goji berry green tea from STASH and being bored. talk about an action packed afternoon!

I apologize, I lost my camera cord, stupidity on my [part] :)

I've decided to write a journal that I will take photos of, I find that its more personal, and artistic.:) but I feel strange...My Brain is Salty, like someone sprinkled road salt on my brain. AHHHHHH headache!

I feel as if, I'm embarking on an adventure. a cold, skin-of-your-teeth, type of adventure. one where paranoia is common, as is an unnaturally inhibited sense of self. A decade of cowardice has concocted a vile and odious bouquet that we now shall guzzle. serves them right for raising us as wolves and now that we are faced with real human emotions, we are beside ourselves with fear. I think we need to recollect our thoughts on this decision. --------------------------------------------- I sit in the back row of my liberal studies class, the essay and the argument. The Professor is neat-o.:) I started my new plan, I am going to lose 30 pounds by the end of April. I want to be underweight, no flab:) I started last night, I will weigh myself each night and record it on my calendar:)

I write poems to fill the void. you can find them at.... allpoetry.com/sticksnstones

I have just read Twilight and New Moon by Stephenie Meyers and my verdict is that it is such an amazing series that it fixates even me a nineteen year old art student to the point where I stay up at night reading, and thinking about the books. They are amazing, I started twilight on wednesday at noon and finished new years day at noon[i did not stay up all night, on wednesday due to new years eve] I began new moon on saturday at 8 p.m and finished it sunday at 4 a.m [intermittant with frequent breaks]. but now I need Eclipse, really really bad. because without it, my mind is wandering, and I need to read it so that I know what happens next. I'm sure that i sound retarded but I love this series. I HAVE NOT SEEN THE MOVIE YET! DON'T TELL ME HOW IT COMPARES!!!

patchouli is such an awesome smell for incense! but the smoke does make my eyes burn, disgusting! My Snug piercing is being gross. Theres a lump over the hole thingy and its filled with lymph fluid, and it is retarding the healing of my ear, it makes me quite infuriated, Tomorrow I shall go find elyse to get my balls off! haha hysterical:) Tomorrow is also New Years eve. I hope I carry through with my new years resolution, the resolution to lose 15 pounds and go to more shows!, i love local bands, and since the dungeon closed I haven't actually gone to see any. But I plan too.:)

I cleaned my bedroom today, it took 6 hours, but it is done, and now i can relax:) I also put up some old posters I had bought but never hung, later this week Me and Zac are going to asylum to get our lips pierced, I want my 2nd lip piercing back, and zac wants to get his lip done. And my friend Darcie is the piercer at asylum so we only pay 40 bucks combined which is pretty sweeet! I'm excited I will have snakebites again!, I missed them so. I am very happy at the moment. :)

im sitting on the couch/fouton in my basement cheech my ratty has dived down my cleavage, and my boyfriend is playing with his new hd tv. I bought some clothes today, i got shirts and bras and stuff, Boxing day is not what it once was. There used to be sales all day everywhere, but some stores had no boxing day sales, just normal deals (that aren't really deals at all). I am nervous about starting school again, but I think it'll be awesome, I already have friends, and that's the hard part, I feel as if I should be someone different with a new altered set of emotions. I feel happy, which is strange, normally every christmas is ruined by my alcoholic father yelling and my mother yelling back, she married the bad boy from school the one she thought she could change, and what did she get for it? a life that sucks, to be treated like dirt, and always put last. my father should not have had kids, He is way too selfish. I have no alcoholistic tendencies, I enjoy occassional drinking, that's all it is; occassional.

Today was christmas. merry merry all! Today I gave zac silly books and a beatles cd. he gave me some wonderful wonderful perfume. Madame by Jean-Paul Gaultier. Today I received: a MacBook, an ipod docking station, Dirty Blonde by Courtney Love[any art enthusiast who likes her should own her journals. this book is amazing!] Twilight, Britney Spears-Circus, a Blanket, 2 big tins of quality street chocolates:), rainbow leg warmers,and an itunes card. I like giving more, but getting is a bonus. romorrow is boxing day shopping time:)

So today is my first day of christmas break. I don't go back to school until january fifth. I am thinking of majoring in sculpture/installation. I apparently have a great sensibility with Installation, plus I enjoy Installation immensely. I love creating little rooms filled with strange objects, They make me feel all tingly. I feel sort of sad that first term is over. But I have color exploration, sculpture and installation as well as photography next term, so that should be fun. The real reason that I am writing is because I have too much time on my hands since I'm home all the time now.

for my time based media class one of the projects was to create a digital documentation of all the assignments for the class this semester.thing Since it was one of my favorite classes this semester, I had no contempt towards creating a page specifically for this purpose. The diary is timebasedmedia and I urge everyone to visit and watch the videos and read the essays and future updates, I plan to document all my OCAD-ly projects this way from now on. go to my page...www.sitdiary.net/timebasedmedia

Currently I, am sitting in a chair in the mac lab waiting for my file transfer so I can go to the AGO, ya with my ocadian status I get in free! I must transcend through the space time continuum until I have written an Essay on Gerald Gladstone, currently my favorite sculptor, Made a Film based Installation, I have a finished drawing of the lounge filled with potbelly pigs and have 9 studies done. This file transfer takes too long, and I am living on only a few hours of sleep, an orangina, and a few meager tic-tac's, I should eat soon. holy fuck is rthis transfer ever going to be complete? It is only at 61%! It's been half an hour already! double guh double errrr.

Wow, it's been over a month. I have been so busy with school, I have a sculpture that is due tomorrow, it's already a week late, so I assume I should finish that today, if I want a chance in hell of passing the class...anyway, I started listening to Shane Koyczan's spoken word poetry, he is amazing. go to http://www.houseofparlance.com/koyczan/index.html and click on mp3 Visiting Hours is my personal favorite. check him out. I have decided that I am a beautiful person, except for the morning commute. I'm an asshole too during morning train rides but I should go check stuff out and finish my dumb sculpture. Peace and Cheers

I am sitting on a broken spineless ashes of what was once a chair, in our lovely first-year lounge. I am bored out of my mind, I need to make friends, well more than the ten I already have. University is a lonely place sometimes, anyway I came here early with the purpose of finding the Red Bull Gallery. Doug told us to go see it. but he gave the wrong address and I couldn't find it, so I sent him an e-mail explaining what happened. That's all I can do. Cheers, Cassie

Okay, I'm kinda pissed off because I had written an entire 3 page entry for you all to read and then my frickin old ass computer deleted it then crashed! I hate my stupid 5 year old toshiba laptop! But I have bat earings, pretty eyeshadow, and used/new cowboy boots handed down from my mummy:). Alex got accepted into Res. which is cool, on Tuesday I'm going job hunting along queen west and I went shopping with Skye my sister, Giant Tiger Oshawa opened today:) I LOVE MY BOOTS

So I like school. my professore are awesome, and I'm making friends. I love travelling to toronto almost everyday, and I have discovered galleries and exhibits around town. I have a 3 hour drawing studio on monday and wednesday, on tuesday I have Liberal Studies a tutuorial for liberal studies and time based media. thursday is my day off, and friday I have a Structure class.

Okie doke. Today me and my mummy bought transit passes which cost her 330 dollars. We also went clothes shopping and I bought two pairs of jeans, two pairs of yoga pants for tuesdays (when I'll be at school all day) and lastly a purse and a t-shirt. so i'm a pretty happy camper. We also went by timmie's and got my hair cut. It is a shoulder length bob, with layers and distinct Bettie Page bangs. :) I'll post pictures later.

Soooo...I got everything straightened out with my merdre. Tomorrow she's giving me bux so i can get the dead cut from my hair, and she's taking me to a respectable store to buy jeans because everyone at value village is a short shit. (Let's get something out in the open, No I do not run to mommy whenever I need something, I had a job a little over a month ago, and no i didn;t get fired!) I had a wee chuckle at that one. Monday is my first day of class, from 6:30-9:30 p.m. I have a drawing studio. man do i adore art school! I also pick up my student card and see my locker. I'm excited but nervous at the same time. I may not have a city transit pass, or go pass by school but i will definitely have october passes! I hope it goes well. wish me luck