how many times can I apologise beg wander, lost in these empty waves of silences like barren fields you're leaving in your wake? Scream at me, hit me. Slam me into a wall. Anything is better than your silence, your blank stare. Your famous angry.look. I've apologised. I have. Explained. Excused. Made up. Lied. I've done a lot God knows I've tried To find the truth I've even lied Tell me when "I'm sorry" becomes good enough to talk. For you to look me in the eyes with any kind of love whatsoever, I'd cry from happiness. Spare me a glance. Look at me the way you used to. I remember when you'd hug me and the floor beneath me would drop out. You closed out the earth and everything and everyone else in it with the simplest embrace and now you won't look at me. For a mistake I've even forgiven myself for. And that's hard work. Will you only know how much you mean to me when you're gone? Will it take you that long to realize... You could suffocate me with your silence. Down inside. I'm Bleeding.