So I don't normally write in a diary, i used to all the time but well lately i have been slacking. i'm not really sure why. I guess i feel that i have lost my writing talent well at least the way i used to to write a story or something that someone would be interested in reading. I think i still have the ablitly i just need to unearth it again. Well to tell you a few things about myself i'm a 19 year old Female, that had the inside and maturty of a 24 year old, though sometimes just like everyone I can act childish. Well I'm going into my second semester at Cedar Crest College, i'm going to be a Theatre major i'm really into lighting designs. I feel in love with a boy I feel that I can never have. I'm an only child, and Christmas is one of my least favorite holidays. I think that's about the basics, i love music, and i love my friends. They are my life! so for the past few years of my life I have lived at hell aka Milton Hershey School. As much as i hated it i would never trade my experences there for the world. Though part of me would never want to go back. Though free everythign was soooooooo nice! and the past seveal months i worked at the PA Ren faire. While going to college, it was hard and not easy, but i did it. the faire it was the most exciting time in my life though has caused alot of drama over the course of the past few months for me! Which leads me to the whole guy situation,....which i will talk about at a later date. Though i feel the need to write something so perhaps i will try...to go out with a poem *note i have not writen a poem in over a year* The ligths fade the shadow is cast is now or never your hour has past left alone the room is dark cold as ice shaking hands I'll be all right I take a breath my chest does hurt tears pour amonst the dirt the lights fade the shadow is cast it's now or never your hour has past