Humans are interesting creatures. They enjoy other’s pain and like to cause it even more. They thrive on pain, anguish, fear of others. Humans love to watch others suffer. Some are better at hiding it than others. They’re all sweet and caring. They actually genuinely care about others. But deep down inside of them, in some dark place, they love it. They love the misery. They crave it, want it, need it. It’s their secret, I never meant for you to see me like this. I never wanted you to see the screwed up side of me. The side I kept locked away in the shadows of my soul. There were so many things I should have told you, long ago, and now there’s no time to. I didn’t want you to go, but I had to let you leave. It took so long, just to be able to smile without you by my side. I’m sorry I was so cold and I want you to know… I’m getting better. Too bad it’s too late for you. The tears have finally dried. My soul no longer cries. You were everything to me. And I was nothing without you. But now, I’m letting them control me, and you know I won’t stand it. I am who I am. Perhaps if I wasn’t you’d still be here, and for that I’m sorry. But now it’s time for me to be me again. I’m sorry I am who I am. I’m sorry I clung to you, even after you were long gone. It was so hard when you left, though. So hard…so hard. I wanted to fall to the darkness and follow you, but I stood strong. It was hard, but I did it. And now I’m letting them in, forever, for the first time. I miss you, but I can finally let you go. I’m sorry I am who I am. It pains all those around me, you most of all. It pains me sometimes. Pain. The very foundation of our dark existence, which we wish to be rid of more than all else. .And yet it’s pain we strive on. Pain that let’s us know we’re still alive. I kept it hidden for so long. I kept it secret. Even from myself, but now, it rules me. Pain. The worst thing. The best thing.