For some reason my mom and I started talking about my parent's seperation way back when I was little. She felt the need to remind me that one of the conditions of getting back together was that she never mention his drinking problem. Which is ridiculous, because how can you live in a house with him and not mention it? But that's that's beside the point. I stupidly made the comment that I didn't understand why she was still with him. I mean don't get me wrong. I love my dad. He's an amazing person... so long as he's not drinking... but most of the time he is drunk. And a terrible person to be around. So I do wonder why my mom puts up with it. And she answered... because of you. She apparently would need to leave the state in order to be far enough away from him, and that might even not be far enough. Why would you ever tell someone that you're the cause of so much pain? That will scar me more than her leaving ever could have done.