Oh baby can you feel the apathy seeping from my stitching? Lets start over. Hi, my name is ______[[fill in blank]] and im losing control. I dont know how to breathe anymore, let alone lead a fulfulling life that doesnt lead to panic every day. I constantly second guess every movement, thinking of the repercussions it could have. Well not true...everything leads to you and the effect you seem to have. "i never knew that everything was falling through" Im in over my head too. go figure, its a package deal. I wish you were a stranger. maybe then i would have known to stay away. i wouldnt be taking apart the anatomy of my psyche and trying to reconfigure it to better suit us. I would be blissfully ignorantly going about like i was fine. i was ok with being broken. i didnt feel it then. Or i did, i just thought it was how everyones supposed to feel. Dont try to fix me. i dont want to open pandoras box again. its full of demons, havent you heard?