Im glad there's a website in which i dont necessary post things for other people to read. i mean, if my fb friends knew my exact thoughts they would be somewhat disturbed. i dont understand myself, or am i afraid to understand it? I've been standing here looking at the wall and you know what ive realized? I have noone. Even God is ashamed of me. I'm either too lazy to do things, or i simply dont know how to do them. And i keep making excuses, that is the worst part. Im doing somewhat good in school, but i feel such a failure because i'm failing one course. I just dont know what to do with myself. Im extremely afraid of the future, and I feel I have a whole lot of loneliness waiting for me. [not that i could be any more lonely]

on the other hand.. i still have hope..