Listening to: Silence (ain't that a first)!
Feeling: discombobulated
weird emotion I know but that about sums it up...I don't know where I am anymore...or what I even care about anymore...so much has happened and I've realized how somethings mean so little and yet others mean so much!
Aloha All...
Wow it's been a while since the last time I was on here! It's been a while since I've been on a computer period! This entry will prolly have a lot of emotions in it so if you don't wanna here complaining you might as well hit the [x] now!
I had the idea I was gonna start this off and be all bitchy and shit, but right now I'm calm so I think I'll work with that till I become uncalm. Let's see...
When I say what's the worst summer for you what events come to mind or what summer comes to mind?¿?¿
Mine would have to be the summer that I lost both my grandfathers. Not only did I lose them in the same year, but within the same week! I also had a close friend of mine get into car accident, she wasn't severely hurt so that's a good thing, but the accident still happened! I was on vacation in Ohio(visiting my Aunt -n- Uncle) when we found out about my grandpa so that got cut short(it actually only lasted 3 days, 1 day if your not counting the days we were on the road)!
Hey wanna know what summer that was! THIS ONE, summer of 05'! Doesn't it sound great! That was my spectacular summer and I don't even wanna know what else is ahead of me! This has to be the worse summer of my entire life! I think I've cried so much in the last month that I don't think I could cry anymore even if I tried! Well I take that back, I thought the same thing after my first grandpa died and we see what happened after that!
I would just like to say one thing though:
I'm so SORRY to everyone...to everyone who I got mad at or who I said something mean or harsh to! To anyone who I got into a fight with or anyone I said things about or who I had drama with! To everyone of my very dear and loving friends! To all the people out there who care about me and are there for me! I'm sorry to all!
We don't really realize what we go through, what we put our selve through, or what we put other people through until something big or tragic happens in our lives that make us realize what we have or what we've had! Well believe me I've had lots of time to think and i think it's helped me as a person and as a friend!
I love my friends with everything I got and I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world! I wouldn't trade a single memory, a single laugh, a single tear, or a single hug! My friends mean more to me then life itself...I am never gonna find a group of people better then these! You all know who you are and you all know that you have a special place in my heart even if it's a little broken right now! I couldn't find the words to say how much I cherish each and every one of your great personalities!
I would like to say one thing though! My family and I have become so close! Not that my family wasn't super close before! But in this time of tragedy we've turned to each other for strength, guidance, and reassurance and we've pulled together! I love my family more then anything else in the world and I'm so happy that I was blessed with people who love me so much!
I love all of you out there and I hope that your lives are full of happiness, joy, and cheerfullness! I know there are other out there too who are suffering and in pain and I would just like to say I hope you make it through in this tragic time!
Well I think I've gotten enough off my mind right now...so I'll see you guys later...
Yea, I get everything your saying. I'm sorry for you haveing to lose both of your grandfathers and while you were on vaca. I just want you to know that I heart you=)
Love Ya,
Johnna
I
LOVE
YOU
Jen x33
I MISS YOU
&
I HEART YOUx33
Hope your vacation to Camel Beach is going good, you better call me when you get back and tell me all about it=)
Luv Ya,
Johnna