Hey Y'all, it's been awile! Not much has happened I suppose. I need to get my license soon so I can drive around everywhere so I don't have to sit here so much. No one really uses this much anymore, so I suppose I will restart using it, just so I can have a different link. Plus, I like this site better than the other journal sites I've tried. Anyway, I'm trying to get in touch with an 'ol pen pal of mine. I hope it works. That'd be pretty freaking cool to talk to him after like....12 years. Anywho, I guess I'll type more tomorrow. *~*Shaina*~*

Long time, I see. Anywho... Let's see. A week ago I turned Super 17! Damn, I'm an old bastard. I saw Hitchhiker's Guide with Dan last night. It was REALLY good. I loved it. A few weeks ago, Emily, Tephie, LT and I took a bus to the Andy Warhol museam. That was interesting. We ended up in New Kensington. We were hoping to get lost any way... By the way...A very Happy Birthday to the loverly Bridget!! Happy Sweet 16!

So, I saw Paula on her first birthday. She's an adorable lil sweetheart. Last Sunday, my Dad had Dan, my Uncle Tommy, Mike, my cousin Richie, my Aunt Annie, Renee's parents and well you get it, over to help take down trees in the backyard. It was fun, actually. We got ice cream afterwards. Now the bad part of that, Paula got me sick. Throwing up everything all the time sick. Therefore, who had to miss going to Disney World? Ay, me. I was so upset. My darling Cara and I were supposed to be Disney Princesses!! Dan made me feel better by bringing me soup though. Isn't he the best person ever?! I love him so much...*day dreamy sigh* Anyway, I guess that'll be it for now. I haven't got much else to say. ...'Cept the last Driver's Ed is tonight! YAY!

On Saturday, Tephie and I went to Central's musical, 42nd Street. It was pretty good. I got kinda pissed off afterwards for reasons left to your imagination. Anyway, Carina was there! I have missed her so much. Me and her are hanging out on Saturday. I am very excited! On Sunday, I did pretty much nothing then went out to eat, then did more nothing. Today, me and Tephie walked to Giant Eagle and rented American Pie. Then we went back to my house and watched it. It was...interesting. Some parts were pretty funny. Then we ate pretzels and I had mine with left over pasta in a beer chili sauce. It was pretty good. Then I went to pick up Katie after her play practice at her school. She plays a mouse in Cinderella. I'll miss her show due to being in Disney with the Chorus, Band and Orchestra. YAY! DISNEY! Tomorrow is Paula Mae's 1st Birthday! That's my baby sister! YAY PAULA! I am going to watch the stars now. Good night, fair dreamers.

So, I don't feel as bad anymore. Things have gotten better, but I still feel like a loser. I can hear my Dad upstairs telling Paula "Don't do that anymore!" Apparently she's being a "little stink pot." Yet, even when's she's bad, she's still a sweetheart. I think I may going over my buddy Mike's today. Then maybe to Dan's musical he's stage crewing, but I don't know how were gonna get there. I'd feel so horrible if I couldn't go. Like a horrible evil girlfriend. Maybe I'll attempt tomorrow's showing instead. I finished the book I was reading. It was very good. It's called "Tithe." It was very well written and had so much imagery. It was quite gruesome in some parts, with all the murders and blood. There was alot of blood. Very good book, I suggest it. I also suggest everyone out there to read "Blue is for Nightmares." It has two books after it. "White is for Magic" then "Silver is for Secrets." I think "Silver" is my favorite. I'm hoping for a fourth. *crosses fingers* 3 days till Paula's 1st Birthday!

I don't know what to think anymore. I feel like I'm being torn between love and hate. It all mixes together to form me at this moment. Listening to depressing music, no lights on, little hope for tomorrow. I'm happy at school, and with friends, but when I think about it...I begin to feel tears. And maybe when you figure out what I am upset about, you think "No biggie." But after a while of it, you begin to feel like you're only there whenever needed. Like you're a trophy and not a human. I know that's not what goes through their mind, but it hurts they would let it go this long. I guess that's all I am. A hollow loser, who is only useful when needed.

Spring Break has come and ...almost gone. I still have 7 hours till midnight. Anyway here's a follow up of my life and it's living. Paula, last Tuesday, had her surgery. She has a scar and it's raised but will disappear in time (super good). She's also not going to have a droopy eye, which makes me feel so relieved. She's doing great and makes no sign that she even cares that there's a bandage on her face. She's a trooper! Dan went to Flordia to visit his grandparents down there. He left last Wednesday and will return tonight. YAY! I've missed him alot. It makes me sad when he goes away, but it's all happy when he comes back. YAY! Wednesday night I went to Waterworks with Erin and Shea. We wandered around to random stores. We saw Gary at Wal-Mart! lol We saw cute lil puppies at the pet store. I wanted to take them ALL home. We ate at Panera and it was yummy. OO! At Barne's and Noble's, we bought a lil something for Jared. LMAO Then I got a triple chocolate chip cookie as big as my face and a double chocolate frapachinno. I thought I was gonna puke. Thursday I felt sick, so I stayed in and slept all day. Friday I was over my Dad's and saw my baby sister Paula. Saturday morning I puked. Then I had an interview at the zoo. I went back to my Dad's and slept the whole day to feel better. Sunday was Easter, and even though I am Wiccan, my mom doesn't know, therefore still bought me something. I'd tell her but she would KILL ME. I'll tell her when I move out. She has less control that way. I went over and saw Renee's parents. Then I went over my Dad's side and it was super fun. Me, my Uncle Tommy, Mike and Val watched Excalibur. I only got to see the beginning though. Today I was bored for most of it. Then me and Emily walked to Giant Eagle and bought Lunchables and ate at the lil cafe section. Then we spent like, an hour looking for dessert. Em ended up buying tiramsu and I bough this yummy Oatmeal and Chocolate cookieish ice cream. Now I sit here before you, typing my life away. Therefore I will leave you now. *~*Shaina*~*

Paula has her surgery probably Tuesday. My Dad and Renee want to get another Dr.'s opinion 'cause this one, not only said that she may have a droopy eye and had no care in making her look as good as possible, but is doing this surgery for the first time. Therefore, they're getting another Dr. who's actually done this before and cares to make her look normal after. National History Day was yesterday. I lost..again. Next year's is "Taking A Stand in History." Apparently, the judges don't like Greece..or ancient history. Cause that's basically been my topic the past few years. Maybe they got mad when I said that the biggest problem in communication is people being too close minded to hear other people's thoughts and expand their own minds to be well educated. I should write my paper at some point today. Oh boy, another paper. Just the thing to cheer me up. Dan's leaving for Flordia Wednesday.

Found out some news this weekend. My baby sister, who is going to be one on April 5, needs surgery. She has a small sist on her cheek, it may need to be removed this Friday. (or can wait a week) Which means that my Dad and Renee won't be able to make it to History Day on Saturday. That's ok though, Paula deserves all the love in the world. No one even has to come to History Day, I'm kinda used to no one being there. Anyway, that's all that's really important right now. I'm worried about Paula being out under. I just want her to be OK. I love her alot. She and Katie are my awesome little sisters. I'd do anything for them.

So... ya this week has sucked. English is killing me, I'm not so hot on writing another 7 page paper so soon after History Day's but, hey, that's life. Speaking of History Day....it's ONE WEEK from today. I'm so nervous, the judges are going to find someway to shoot me down and make me lose like last year. At least I numbered my pages this year. Thursday was shitastic. I forgot about my Latin test and didn't study. I got 3 hours of sleep. People hate me for no reason. My purse got stuck on the railing going to Civics. I wrote down crap for my Alg II homework, cause I suck like that. It was gym day, and I suck at volleyball. I'm behind in English, WAY behind. I didn't eat lunch cause I had to do Chem homework. My period started. It was lab day. I couldn't sing the suck ass Chorus song. It sucks and should burn. Mark was like "i'll take you driving!" and I'm like "....no." Yesterday was eh. I heard our Chem homework was due Monday, so I didn't finish. Well... it wasn't. So I had to turn it in anyway. The good thing is that I'm apparently smart enough to be eligible for National Honors Society, but I won't get in. I don't think I'm "involved" enough. Anyway, today I have to get MORE blood drawn. How super is that huh? The hopefully me Erin and Bridget will get to go to Don Pablo's or maybe Indian Garden today, while my sister and mom are malling. My ovaries hurt.

As you can see, I am pissed off. If you don't know why, and care to know, then maybe you should im or call me. If you don't care then FUCK OFF. Here's all I have to say. My girls kick fucking ass, and men can burn in hell. The End Now go away...

Last night I went mallin with my dear Erin and my dear Bridget! We went to Eckerd so Erin could get note cards for English, and while we're there, who walks by? Dan! YAY! So we go hang out and I got Tutti Dolce lipgloss! Chocolate fondue baby, o yes! It tastes yummy. Anywho, we went to this awesome store that had all this cool music and fairy stuff. I LOVED it. Then Bridget bough rock deodarant! LMAO It was cool lookin! Then we went to eat. I got chicken and rice and they got french fries. Dan picked off everyone. We saw Chrissy there, so we had her join us! I felt bad going up the escalator cause Erin was scared. I LOVE YOU ERIN! We went to Spencer's and wandered about. Then Dan wanted to buy a dvd, so he got Shawn of the Dead and Dawn of the Dead! The we went out to Barne's and Noble's to wait for rides. We had a super fun time! I sprayed Dan with perfume, so that always rocks to make him smell "girly". I am super happy that Erin and Bridget got along with Dan so well. He gets along with my friends soooooo well, including their parents! Yup, I got me a keeper....*wink* Well, I'm gonna go, Dan should be here soon. I hope. I haven't talked to him all day, but last night we confirmed him coming over... so I'm assuming that since he hasn't called, he'll be here. Toodle Loo! *~*Shaina*~*

So ya, last night was super. Dan got me a mermaid doll! YAY MERMAID DOLL! Dan kept trying this one game to win a Gameboy Advanced, he got pretty close, but sadly didn't win. Let's see, then I went back to Dan's for Melissa's birthday cake. It was yummy. Then I went home. Today, I'm hoping to have Mike and Dan over today for a "Movie Day!" I wanted Val to come too, but Mike said she has lots of homework to do. :( Dan's supposed to call me so I know when they're coming, but it's been 2 hours... HAHA LMFAO! Lady on Best Week Ever ~ "Ya know what Michael Jackson's penis looks like? A vagina!" So...not much else to say at the moment. I'll get back to ya when something happens. lol Oodles of Toodles!

My day today started out a lil shakey with the whole "quote deal" again. If you don't know what I'm talking about then .... don't ask. I was sick this morning, but I forced myself to get better for Dan's sister, Melissa's birthday party at the North Park Lounge tonight. It was super! Ya know what? It's late. I'll continue tomorrow!

Well, it snowed and, don't get me wrong, I love snow, but I need to get to the mall tonight with Dan. I haven't seen him since Valentine's Day cause I was sick n' all. I miss him. Not to mention that I gotta really get some stuff before Saturday. Almong with that stuff that I need, but can come at anytime, would be that awesome lipgloss I hear about from Bath and Body. Apparently, it tastes REALLY good so who doesn't want a good lipgloss?! Anyway in school today I went with Bridget and Erin to Miss Smith after Latin to dance, but ended up just waiting till 3rd. Then during Civics we did more Senate stuff and, needless to say, boys debated on how prisoners should get porn in jail. Please, people, let the porn go! *eye roll* Second period, I sat with Jared, Calyn, Bridget, Michelle, and Brian during stoody hall. In gym, we did our dance and got a 23/25! WOOT! In Algebra, we did more parabolas and Mr. Aaron got all giggly when he said tomorrow we'll talk about RECTUM PARABOLAS! It was funny to watch him giggle. In English we got stuff together for our super Post-Valentine's Day party tomorrow! I have to bring in chiparoos! My bag has "Happy Heart Day!" and "Hearts, Stars, and Horshoes, Clovers and Blue Moons, Pots of Gold and Rainbows and the Red Balloons!" and drew a picture next to each! hehe! In lunch, I had a spicy chicken patty, spicy curly fries and a sundae cone! I heart my lunch table! Chorus, well, I can't sing with my voice like this so I just kept my mouth shut... In Chem we had that test, I think I messed up Part c on 6 and the last part of 7, but overall I think I did ok... It was a lab day, so we watched this video and it was really funny and all the lights were off and we kept doing all this stuff. Like Gary made shapes on the projector, and Nate wore a box on his head. Erin and I also decided that the men in the video masturbate to periodic tables! The we drove Bridget home after school cause she lives far and it was snowing. Speaking of snow, I officially hate it, hate it with a fucking passion. It messed up everything!! EVERYTHING!!! My mom decided she doesn't want to take me anymore WELL FUCKETY DOO DAY DAY! DOES THE WORLD JUST NOT WANT ME TO SEE DAN?! I'm pissed now. Bye

Well, Hullo! How art thou all today? Well, now, that is super de super! Unless you feel horrible, then in that case I hope you will dance with someone you love, cuase that helps. Anyway, today was an ok day. In civics, we did the Senate thing. Then I had to make up the Civics test the NEXT period. In English 5th period, we got ...DUN DUN DUN! A RESEARCH PAPER! oh boy... whoop... And RIGHT after I finish the History Day paper...thank you Miss Long! Oh well... anyway it was Sundae Bar day at lunch. I got chocolate syrup, carmel syrup, and nuts. mmmmmmmm yummy! During my 8th period study hall, I had to take my Chem quiz I missed, then go back to study hall, then BACK to Chem. After school, I had to make up my Algebra II test, which I believe I did eh on. *Burp* Sorry, I burped. hehe Well... now I'm home and have....driver's ed tonight.... ugh... I have my permit, just give me a car and my Dad and I am good for life. Well, I suppose I shall goeth now. I Love You!!! *~*Shaina*~* aka Mucho *Note* Every mention of Mucho or Sexy Spanish Men who can tango like no other is dedicated to my dear sweet Tephie.

Hey everyone! I haven't typed in a while cause of computer issues. Lesse um since November, I have gotten a kitty that says I Love You from Dan for Christmas. But alot has sucked since then. For example I was sick (still am a little) all last week. I was coughing and not breathing and my ears and throat hurt like hell, but I still managed to do my History Day paper. Damn I'm happy it's over ALL OVER!!!!! But now I will go on March 19 and face the humiliation of losing all over again, yet in front of alot more people who matter this year and will label me as a loser who can't type a 2500 paper on the Socratic method and how effective it is when only two people have done experiments on it to give their findinings to people like me who need to type a paper on the Socratic method... ok nevermind. Today Bridget and Erin came over to work on our super fab dance for gym... ... um...ya...work... that's what we did... haha. No we actually did do something, then watched Gilmore Girls (WHICH IS ON TONIGHT AT 8!) and we listened to random music and looked through my books and old st joe's year book. Haha gotta love 'em! Anyway, I hope ya'll have a super day, and maybe I'll try to write more often! *~*Shaina*~*

This was going to be a great weekend, and it was, but then today came. If November 29 never exsisted I'd be happy. That Fucking Asswipe broke my computer while I was looking for my lost bottom retainer instead of getting clothes out of the dryer, which I never did. But anyway, just another suck ass day in Shaina's suck ass life. Thank the Goddesses for Dan.

Hey ya'll!! On Friday it was Terri's wedding!! It was soooooo super awesome! The wedding was really small but it was cool. I brought Dan and Mike brought Val and Katie brought....herself... Anyway... The reception was so fun. I love my insane family! Me and Val chased Dan and Mike around while they had paper plates in their mouths and we tried to hit them. LOL Then, we had no forks for our cake so we ate it with our faces and I slammed the plate into Dan's face. Then he slammed some in mine and Val put icing on my forehead, then she slammed Mike's face with cake. Then I spilled pop on Mike and Val. (SORRY Guys! I was reaching for the napkin!) Paula was kinds freaked by all the people. Poor baby. OOO The four of us wore leaves in our hair, that was weird, it was fun. OOO , before the wedding my Uncle Tommy picked me and Katie up and we got Mike and Val from school. Theire school could eat my school, like, 6 times. It freaking huge! They had like 20 buses and that was only half. I was like, WOAH! cause my school only has....3... Last night was HOMECOMING!! I went with Dan and my coursage was beautiful!I loved it! Dan came at 5 and then we took pictures and Steph Em and Shea came down at 545 to take more pictures, then we went to meet the other like...10 people for dinner at....CHUCK E CHEESE! LOL Omg! That was soooo awesome. Chuckie like molested Jack. We played all the lil people games, it was so awesome! Then at Homecoming, I saw all my friends who weren't at Chuck E Cheese's. Cara's dress was BEAUTIFUL! She looked so wonderful! And Bailey and Calyn and everyone!! I had to dance with Jared at one point cause Dan got thirsty. lol After, we went and got changed and went to Fun Fest and Cosmic bowling! Then an awesome game of lasrer tag with me Dan Steph Em Shea Haley and Darrien. I got last place. lol Then we went to Eat N Park without Darrien cause he went off somewhere... But anyway.. we got ice cream and I choked on water from laughing and I couldn't stop, but I lived. lol Yup... AWESOME WEEKEND!

Damn... haven't written in a long time. Let's see in the last month... I got a hair straightener. I went swimming in my underwear with Steph and Em. I went to Canada. I bought my homecoming dress. I was happy when it rained. I have Latin at 730 am. I went to a baseball game with Dan and his family. Dan and I went to the zoo today. Em and I took a walk and discovered some odd thing which we will do research on today. I had chicken mole (mole ~ a sauce in mexican food made with chocolate, peanut butter, and spices). I am on Gaia. I had a Latin test. Em and I walked through a graveyard today. Paula has 2 teeth. Paula is eating cereal oatmeal and smashed things. Uh... can't think of anything... o ya.. my computer crashed and everything died. The End.