Sometime...well....mostly ALL the time I wish I was just somewhere else. I am so sick of people and life in general. I really think that everything would be better if I could just....run away. To any where, I don't care, I really don't. I can't stand my home, it's not home anymore. I don't know what is. I can't stand conflicts and everything going on with friends. I finally find people who actually invite me to places and then the world gets pissed, because, obviously, I'm not supposed to be happy. My whole life is basically one big suck fest. I just want to go away. Leave everything and everyone behind and start new. Better yet, I want off this planet. I wasn't meant for here, I have dreams here people call insane. There's no one here who can really look inside and see who I really truly am. I'm probably hurting people saying all of this, maybe I should just shut up before I lose more people who matter. If I lost Dan or Mike or Cara or anyone else who means alot to me. I'd die. I really would, I would just lay down and die, cause life isn't worth living without those people. I just wish that I could take all those people who I love and take them away with me, just fly off to where anything is possible and all dreams are reality. That's all I want and I've wanted it for years now. I just want to be happy, completely happy, no more social conflicts, no more of what is called "home" and to have a home I dream of, no more closed minds, no more pain....just...free just to be free of everything, to be alive, to fly, to live in a world of magic, to be... me. Be just who I am who I can't show, And if you all hate me now then go ahead, cause that'll just bew a few more things to add to my list of things wrong in my life. Just let me be who I am for once. "How does it feel to be different from me? Are we the same?How does it feel to be different from me? Are we the same? How does it feel? I am young and I am free, but I get tired and I get weak. I get lost and I can't sleep, but suddenly, suddenly..." ~Avril