Mom, I hate it here. I can't take it anymore. My life sucks, I just don't want this anymore. There are only a few people keeping me alive anymore. I don't know if you're one of them. Mom, I hate everything, especially that asshole you married. I never liked him, mom, I told you that from the beginning, but you wouldn't listen, and don't tell me that I "need to see someone", cause I don't. You should of had the abortion from the beginning. I might have been born into a better life. I don't care, and, ya, I've known for a few years about the abortion and that really hurt. You never wanted me. Well, I guess I don't want any of this either. Maybe if you just killed me. you would of never married Daddy and you both could have gone on and been happy. I don't want to be here anymore, in this house, or mostly, this planet. I love my Dad and Renee, yet I still love you mom, but I hate you too, and Mark, well I hated him ever since he stepped through that door. I never cry, mom, but I do now more than ever. All of my friends know I hate Mark and they all know that I've been deciding whether to live with Daddy and Renee and Paula. Mom, this is my confession and my thought, either you lose Mark, or you lose me. Either way, I'll be happy, I'm just giving you a chance to be. -Shaina