Damn I dont think I want to think again..I started to think of all the shits thats happened. I looked back at past diaries and now im like shit how did I let that shit happen..I let the girl I love go cause I didnt fight and now she almost left me and she still may (go back to carolina). God I dont know what the hell to do..i mean jade and her broke up but she says she dont kno what she wants..but I dd! and its still her! those feeling I have wont go away and im not sure if I want them to. shit man and jades is my best friend well thats what she says but she always ends up with the person i like and i can never talk to her shes not a person i can just open up to damn geez i hate thinking now and i still havent got a hold of madd who i need to talk to now...