Just sitting around in School with nothing to do this hour. Yep back to a new Semester where I never have anything to do but sit around online or something. Hehe same with with Yearbook hour now, just because it's a new begining again we just use yearbook as a study hall once again with a boring hour. So anyways I'm scheduling for Senior year now this week. How flippin exciting! lol I can't wait to be a damn Senior good shit guys. It's all the basic classes mainly, and I'm getting Senior release to get out early seeing I only need 3 1/2 Credits next year. Easy shit. Well i need to find something more boring to do so ttyl peepz. Im debating on going back to trustmeikno.. Hmm should I?

Lol its been a long time since I've written. Yeah I haven't talked to her in forever and she's just not part of my life anymore.. Hehe I read my last entry damn I can be harsh sometimes. But it's okay.. So i've moved on. Im doing great in school again. I have Psychology, Drama, and Child Development now. Pretty cool stuff I guess. I'm having so much fun in Drama that's for sure. I love it. Well That's all for now this is the first time Ive been home right after school in a longgg ass time obviously.. The times im at home is when im online. Hehe peace crackers.

That thing called my damn house New Years Eve. Prank calleld, almost had me beat her ass I fuckin swear. It just pisses me off literally that she does all this shit to me and everyone else and still gets away with it. Either way Im holding to me word, let me see her out of her damn yard and house.. On my life, and the police never said shit about it either.. Because she told the police I threatend her. I told the cops exactly what I said to her ass.. I said " If she comes anywhere near me im beating her ass and thats a promise " The police never said anything about it. All the times her and her friends threatend me, bullshit Ill beat the shit outta her for thinkin she would do it. Little goddamn tramp Im sick of Katie's shit. I dont think anybodys talked about her as bad as I think about her. That fuckin slut, always going around behind peoples backs, im gunna teach her one of these daymn days... I wonder why she never confronts me but yet has the nerve to walk up to john when im not there talking shit. I WONDER WHY...

People are still pissing me off it kinda sucks to get pissed for absolutly everything. But hey I get use to it I guess.. Well those people get me use to it. I guess Im just trying to be positave about every situation. I just want to beat Katie's ass. Then maybe I will be at peace with myself, I guess that may be what it takes. Then she'll learn to stop accusing people without cause.

Well just downloading music and the music it is just makes me feel aspired. Don't ask the word just popped into my mind. John and Paul are picking me up at 5:30pm. Were going to go kick it tonight. Idk what else to do my hair is starting to grow out again, im excited! But yeaahhh Blah blah blah is my mood sortaaa... Girl u'z a WINDOW SHOPPAH. Lookin @ shit u can't BUY. Your mad @ me and I think I kno whyyy... Koz u'z a WINDOW SHOPPAH! - ;-) It aint my fault-

Alright time to explain my feelings and thoughts. I was completely pissed at Katie, Her family, and Her threating friend. The threats don't bother me honestly.. And neither does Katie being scared. She's always just threatend of her life to put on a show when she's going to copy and give something out to the police. I'm not stupid and the only reason why Im actually thinking about this again, is because I need to get it off my chest. I don't like Katie as a friend anymore. I use to trust her, she was my best friend! But obviously over time she didn't trust me. Trust is a big thing in any kind of relationship.. Weither it be a couple, friends, family, or any type of relationship with another person. It has killed me for her to actually think i'd do something like that.. But she's just trying to get to me. As much as she was building up threats from me to give to the police, she also screwed herself over by just talking back to me. It really does show how inconciderate she can be. That's okay because I learn to forgive and forget. I love my life and the friends i've made since this shit with her had happend. Just beccause Im friends with your enemies doesn't mean I am who I hangout with, or my thoughts are the same as theirs. Im my own person and I have no problem with that. All you need to remember in life is:: "Keeps your friends close, but your enemies closer" I really have lived by that. John use to be my worst enemy, and well Obviously he ended up being the closest person for me to trust. He's my boyfriend of course I trust him, but back then he was my worst ENEMY. Hard to believe but its true. My best friend back then "Katie" had became my enemy.. And Brooke n Olivia I use to dispise because of all the times they seemed like bitches and sluts. But I got to know them and they are my closest friends now. They use to my my typical enemy. It's wierd how the world goes.. So from here on out, no contact with Katie or family or her friends. I'm just me and Ive always kept her enemies closer. That's hard to say, but deep down I always have because they have always made their points about her. Even when I use to stick up for her.. Gawsh, Its so hard. But anyways Im learning I need to put my past back where it belongs, and yesterday was just yesterday but Im living for today.

Honestly Im tired. I'm tired of all your lies.. Your fake ass cries. Im sick of you always trying to bring up the past, obviously the past didn't last.. So can you just forget and forgive and just let me live? Stop trying to always come after me with ridiculous things, All i want is to see what tomorrow brings.. You always manage to place on me guilt, I have no guilt but the shit you've built. So just leave me be and don't even try and say sorry.. I honestly can't stand it no more there is nothing left to say.. Maybe you'll just let it all go one of these days.. Just realize it's all bullshit and throw out the past koz I have many of problems with you here threatening my ass. You always say I threaten you but what the hell did I really truely do? I didn't say Hi one day and blew you off, and all of a sudden you think im showin off? You think im on drugs now and have nothing better to say.. You blame everything on me in every possible way. Can't you just get over yourself and realize I dont like you people anymore.. Or can't you just take that your daughters a whore? It isnt my fault you dont know she sleeps with so many guys, hell her own boyfriend dont know steve was her first guy. It aint my business to tell the story, maybe one day she'll tell u the truth and say she was never a virgin long. Ah well thats her business your little baby doll.. That's why she manages to tell you lies everyday, to say she never talked to me before anyway. When we use to be close friends and all you did was try and break us up, and I know you did it on purpose your the only one that ever accused me of stuff. So don't blame it on what I did, because I never did. You find rumors to share things to explain, and yet you do it all in vain. Nobody cares about me and what I do, so just leave me be and FUCK YOU.

Alright fuckin katie had to police over at johns the other night trien to say I broke out some fuckin windows on her van. You know what that's fuckin bullshit koz everytime something stupid happens to her it gets blamed on me!!! FUCK THAT BITCH. Dunnobody wanna go by that bitches house anyways... This is my freedom of speech and i can talk about anybody any way i want, and aint no cop going to sit in front of my boyfriends house and tell him to admitt some shit he didnt do! And then come around and accuse me of some stupid bullshit like that either! Stupid ass people, why cant this bitch just get a life and stay the fuck outta mine! Goddamn it just kills me with laughter to know that im the center of all their negative attention.. How lovely. Oh yeah and whatever happend to One on One, and not bringing ur dumbass friends into this.. if u wanna beat my ass go ahead and try... but when u bring ur lame ass friends into it, aha hunni I got friends to back me up too and trust me i wouldnt have wasted my time busten ur windows, I would have beat ur ass instead. It would make me alot happier. But I haven't had the chance to see ur ass on the street. Thanks much have a nice day!

* Im so goddamn happy that im finally ungrounded! The best that has happend all weekend! Last night was fun then a bitch after being off grounding.. I went kickin it with Brooke then kicked it with John and Ky-lee.. lmao (kyle). But yeah and tonight I got driving again I cant wait, that stuff will be done in 2 weeks! YAY YAYEE.. Fuck yes. So anyways, Im so excited! My parents let me drive myself to Cudahy yesterday to go by brookes ma's house. Her ma wants me to come over for thanksgiving koz GEORGE WILL BE BACK TO VISIT FOR TURKEY DAY! WOO WHOO! How exciting i get to see my boo boo! :-) Amazing! I cant wait for fuckin tony to get his ass back here! Ugh im gunna give that mo fo' a hug like theres no tomorrow! I MISS UM! GAWSH! ;-) Im memory of him! aha. Thats brookez lubah.

!!It's SNOWING!! *~!HOw amazing!~* And im smokin a ciggarette being bored till i gotta walk up 2 driving class... woo whoo! My last class is on the first of dec. I cant wait! I gots my temps now.. I got to drive home from the DMV. I luv my mommy! lol. I cant wait to just be able to drive my carrr.. My lil neon.. I gotta get insurance tho. that'll be like 100 a month.. SO its all good in daaa hoodd.. lmao.. Amanda just started @ Grad. Grad today.. She starts @ 10 and gets out at 1:30pm.. AMAZING! I love that shit, i wish i could do that! Fuck yeah.. lol oh well.. I stick to my 7 hours a day. Damnit. Well im gunna go talk to john n amanda, ttyall lata.

Grounding hasn't been that bad lately. They've been letting me do stuff now around the house and whatever. Johns able to come over still so it's all good, even though he hasn't much lately. But yeah i'm usually over there, aha. I have to babysit Mikki and Bribri today. While my aunti goes into work till like 4pm. Shes gunna pay me so its all good.. Ive been making a few extra bucks from my sisters kids too.. 20bucks a night. Hellz yeah. Well basically my mom let me drive last night, aha it was amazing! She made me go down Oklaholma and Beliot! Crazy shit I swear. I get my temps Monday though, so it'll all be good. I couldnt go yesterday because my mom and dad had to work till 6pm. Man if only the DMV was open later! Lol. I got 12 wrong on my class test, out of 139 questions. So I did good! :-) Im so excited, considering I didn't study any of it either the night before... lmao... horrible me. Well im gunna go.. buh bye

Well im still grounded from the night I didn't come home from JOhn's sisters house. It totally wasn't my fault I didn't have a ride home.. And my parents werent home till 1am. Get real if I could have walked from highway 100, goddamn i sure wouldn't have. Doubt anybody in their right mind would have. Oh well though what I can do about that one. I've been having a hell of a time with everything else in my life though. Aha i had the funnest dream the night before last night.. It was amazingly rediculous. It was me n all the ppl i usually kick it with like John, olivia n brooke.. ect... and yeah we were kickin it on some hill with bricks @ the bottom n Katie came walkin past.. aha and me n brooke like coughed n said skank.. n Katie laughed n came back and had a realli slick look on her face and started talking to everyone (being nice)... and i totally flipped out.. I mean like a psychotic type way.. and I lashed out and beat her ass for no reason apparently.. It was fuckin wierd.. * But anyways.. Im in Yearbook, nothing to do and I need to start working on my page soon.. * But anyways- It'll be 1yr. and 7mnthz soon.. Can't wait. This tyme is going by so fast for us.. And all he talks about is our "future" while i keep talking present. Ridiculous people these days.. their with you for a year and yet they believe it'll be a lifetime.. I mean Its not like I dont believe we'll be together forever.. but its like i dont want to think about it and i want to take it in the moment.. u kno? fuck all the bullshit, just stick 2 today.. lmao ---- Im extremely bored.. maybe ill start typing more.. and im grounded for 2 more weeks... I started Driving this monday.. and its Thursday.. I get to take my test to go to the DMV tomorrow.. 139 questions and you can only get what... 40 somethin wrong.. I'll totally pass it! I know driving like the back of my hand, and all the signs are amazingly easy for me.. Of course i'll study before i go tonight though... and then DMV tomorrow for my temps..!!*

Well I got my car Friday night while I was babysitting for Stacy while they went to a comedy club.. It was pretty cool.. My car is amazingly beautiful I thought it would be a piece of shit considering my dad bought it for me.. but it wasnt. Thankz popz. :-) Well yeah so my first class is Monday. IM so excited.. Sophia's pizza called me back for a job so i have to call them tonight. I cant wait, everything is just coming back in a good way for me lately. Love it.

Well Finally Sweet 16 as of last Thursday. Good deal guys. I'm so excited! :-) My parents are paying for Driving and they bought me my car already! 600 bucks Dodge Neon folkz. Lol I dont care what kinda car it is, but the Neon's alright i guess. I'll of course end up having problems with the piece of shit in the long run. But till then i'll be good it's a form of trans. besides my feet, ey? So yeah I get my car in a week! On Friday this week! Woot woot, and driving starts on the 7th of Nov. So eventually i'll be able to drive my new car! 16 is gunna be flippin amazing! And I already planned me n Preston r driving up 2 my aunti's in MI this coming summer.. Cant fuckin wait! Awh shit SAW2 comes out this week too! Fuck yeahz. Imma go see that shit for sure! Oh shit I almost forgot to tell u all.. I got my ring 4m john last weekend! Amazing 200 bucks for the damn thing for mybday! Ughmm I love u John we're gunna b 2gether foreverr, like u say. Well yeahh so anyways we went to Six Flags for sweetest day... And o got my ring the day before. Ugh for my bday I spend half of it with family n half with john n hiz fam. We all had hella fun i sweear.. and Friday I stayed home and went by johns all day... THIS IS MY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND I SWEAR IT. And Came home after johns then went back over there and got high duh... Mad killa 4 my bday, luv u guys! And we played Monopoly all damn night @ Paulies! Fun shit after chillen in the park with everyone.. mad we had sum good times guys.. right right??... Then I stayed @ Paulies bro's house.. Of course drinking all damn night, johns ass puked n shit.. then we just all stayed over there.. Me n john got a little kids fuckin bedroom, lmao we had some jokes in the morning.. lol FUCKIN BACARDI! :-) So yeah now im just chillen at home after kickin it wit Kyle n paulie once AGAIN!.. Sara im in luv with u! lol.. ur flippin amazing... Weve been spending so much time with fuckin paulie n sara, u 2 are soul matez hunni! :-) I fuckin luv ur ring!! And haha 2 fuckin brooke (MY RING) bitch. ANYWAYS AS OF THE 17th It was myne n johnz. 1 1/2 YEAR Ann. Whoot de whoo..

This morning I'm up early as all hell.. --------- Nothing to do so fuckin early either, I went to sleep at like 12:30am too. Why in the world am I up so flippin early then? Idk, but yeah.. I never went out last night like I wanted too.. Good thing though because after I thought about it I put the keys back and my Dad woke up like 5 mins. later. And he stuck the cat in my room in which I had just closed my window like 3 mins. before that. I was so close to getting yelled at for having my window open and the damn keys. But I'm so glad I got smarter than that last night. Good deal. And well yeah Brooke called me back at like 12:15am and I was just about to fall right asleep, so I just told her im stayin in and went to bed. Ugh was I tired, and I hate waiting around for other people to do things. Her dad was still up at that time too.. Jeeze. My parents knocked out early as hell but my dad woke up a couple times koz of the cat. Thats why he put her in here, and she was scratching at my door and knocking the metals around on it... The onez on my door knob. Jeebus kitty! Oh yeah my kitty might be pregnant. Koz she got out last week, thru my window. That's why my parents would be pissed if it was open again, expecially if it was open. Yeah she got out thru my window, koz she knows how to open the locks n stuff. So yeah she's a smart kitty there.. Lolz. Idk why but I feel like typing and I really dont have anything to type about this morning. Well duh koz its the morning and all... Maybe I'll go look up something special to type about. Muhaha.. look up a damn topic.. WTH? lol... stupid me. * I got nuthin else 2 do.. * * So I guess I'll just stick with u * Hehe. That's 4 my diary.. lmao that sounds so flippin mean diaryy.. like your a person and all, that would be shiisty as hell if you were a person. Anyways im gunna go find some stuff to look up, cya peepz. Oh yeah.. ** 11 Dayz Till muh Bday ** **** !16 Bitches! ****

Well honestly, I haven't been in school for the whole week so far. My parents don't know that I haven't been to school at all this week, besides Monday. And last week Wed, Thurs, and Fri. I'm kinda dead. Ugh I've had major cramps this whole fuckin week, and they wont go away, Ive taken IBprofin, and pamprin enough times. And it still hasn't takens any of the pain away. I feel like I could die right now. I would totally get bitched at if they knew i haven't been in school this week. I feel so bad about it. And yet Ive been by Brookes n Johns all week koz idk where else to go besides home.. But home just makes me feel worse. Idk what to do. :-(

Homecoming wuz fun last night, yeah yeahh! 25 days till Stephanie is 16~! Woot woot! And the song below is still fuckin AMAZING!

..Obviously by the lyrics, you know who this is 2.. Once again No matter what you say or do.. I'mma be freee, koz imma be me. -------------- See I ain't never think I would have a situation Where the people around me just envy I must replace them See I always thought the people that watch me grow Would want to see me blow fa'sho but little did I know They ain't never really wanna see me smiling. They couldn't take the fact that I was really shining And in my heart I knew they was wishing I was stop 'Cause they don't me to rise and be on top. *And all that jealousy and hate Can be right in front of your face And it's gone hurt for you to see But it ain't your fault just let it be* **So I'm gone close my eyes And I'm gone live my life Despite what you think I'ma be free 'cause I'ma be me.** See everybody wanna have something to talk about So they pointing their fingers and always running their mouths. No matter how you try to satisfy someone else Giving so much of yourself yo' love but it's never enough. The more you give them the more want they ain't happy And they don't see all you do to make 'em happy They don't appreciate it till you walk away But you don't want to hear by now it's too late. *And all that jealousy and hate Can be right in front of your face And it's gone hurt for you to see But it ain't your fault just let it be* **So I'm gone close my eyes And I'm gone live my life Despite what you think I'ma be free 'cause I'ma be me.** What they don't understand is that I'ma keep livin' my life and surviving I'ma keep pushing and striving and climbing and grinding 'Cause ain't no time to be crying, I been providing with the strength to carry my way And I'ma be ok 'cause I'm gone live my life my way And you can say what you wanna say It wont affect the way I'm living I'm winning by being free again **So I'm gone close my eyes And I'm gone live my life Despite what you think I'ma be free 'cause I'ma be me.**

* Note 2 Katie * Honesly I dont understand how you can be so calm and collective one minute, and yet be a bitch another.. You talk about me being a whore a slut a whatever you want to call it, but yet ive been with the same guy for a year and a half almost.. And you've been with how many? Weither I have the marks on me or not, it's called expirimenting.. Sometimes you do need to live a little and stop being so confined. Idk what to tell you i was really pissed about all this fuckin bullshit. It really is bullshit you know. And yeah you talk about the past all them times like I was never there for it. I know what happend and i know your sitting here and lying and denying that you ever went out with troy just to make your mom happy.. Why your mom told you to fuckin say some shit like that to Heather is beyond me. I dont understand how you can say some bullshit like that to anybody.. Thats like telling a person to commit suicide! That's really everything against everything u use to believe in so OBVIOUSLY u changed too.. Did u ever STOP N THINK. Im not the only one.. At least i know right from wrong hunni. And im not gunna sit here and threaten u.. Im just staten how it is exactly. Just because your mom thinks you should go one on one with everybody doesn't mean u have to sit there and go along with it.. That's retarded, you know in alot of cases ur ma is wrong. So why do u sit and listen to it. It's fuckin retarded that your mom trys to control you. Maybe you need to live your own life and stop letting ur mom do it for you. I thought all that old shit was in the past now how the hell, wait... Where THe hell did your mom make up .. or you make up the shit that I wanted to jump you @?? BEcause a person doesnt say hi that automatically makes me a bad person and makes me look like i wanna jump you.. Yahhh mmk.. just because im kickin it all the time with somebody that does? Or what? I dont become wut i hang with but if u believe that so strongly then whatever. Considering that brooke n olivia arn't trash... because yeah obviously u dont know them @ all... Because they are faarrrr from it hunni. you need to think before u speak girll.. take sum advice at least I KNOW WUT IM TALKIN ABOUT and i dont have my mother speaking for me.. I know what im talking about all the damn time, and i know that at heart im right.. If i wanted to kick ur ass that bad I would have done it, and trust me i wouldn't have had a fuckin group of people with me.. i would have asked u to come kick it and play basketball @ fairview with me.. and beat ur ass one on one... So stop tryin to front with me.. That's a bunch of bullshit the whole damn story, and you damn well know it... So plz get ur shit straight and stop tryin 2 act hard, koz u aint shit hunni. and u kno damn well i could beat ur ass, its that im a better person than that and i wouldn't waste my tyme and money on it girl. Its not worth paying a ticket and fine for ur doctor bill.. so bitch plz. Why do people have to be so fuckin STUPID!?

Well lately i've been getting into trouble.. Aha of course, tons. Been taking my friends parents cars out at night.. and yes I've expirimented with mine too.. It was fun as hell last night tho.. Hehe.. Words just can't explain the fun ive been having..