Hehe idk what kinda mood im in right now. My life is turning in circles.. Kinda like im not sure where I stand yet. I'm getting into knew things, some good some bad. Idk if i'm ever taking the right road as a teenager trying knew things.. But some things im learning i like, which is kinda bad in future refferences.. But i need to talk about them. Weither I want to tell the world and have my expiriences lately open for discussion idk. I've had some firsts in the last 3 months. And it's kinda weird that I like those " quote on quote bad things".. But idk some things are kinda soothing.. Oh well.. On the other hand today im relaxed, and my mind is a wandering. Weither i'll be hooked forever is another question. I can't make it a part of my life, but its there for a good time when u kneed one thats for shure. Also I feel as if I want my guy to be here 24 hours a day right now. And he hasn't been, but also its PMS, so my mind is totally wandering.. Ughmm all i need is some comfort and honestly I have none, the only control I have is me. Weither I want to do those "Things" is only my control but my control takes me into something that doesnt give my body control it just lets everything go. Ughm I feel as if my brain worlds falling.. you try something and you feel down you feel bad kinda like your lying or a disgrace because all your life you had said you'd never do these things.. and lately ive found myself doing them.. Ughmm open for new expiriences... so im gunna watch 2 FAST 2 FURIOUS everybody.. cyah 3 Days of exams LEFT!!! WOOO WHOo!! happy bday ryan!!