I'm so glad school is over, its a big accomplishment and I passed all my exams, I could tell just by taking them. I'm really excited for next year, and prom and all.. I'm offically a JUNIOR! :-) I really need to walk to the gas station to buy some milk and cereal koz im hungry! Well I haven't updated in a couple days obviously. Tuesday I went to the mall with James, Anthony, Karissa, and Dawny. We had some fun running around even though that day we really didnt buy anything. Aha I think us girls all just bought underwear and that was it! Then Wednesday I got paid so I had money woo whoo! So I went to the mall by myself for 2 hours.. Went shopping like wow of course, koz everytime I go alone I have nobody bugging me, so I can totally pick out cute shit. But yea then I went home, and the fone rang asap! And I was thinkin like, "what now?" and it was James telling me he wanted me to go up to the mall with them and crap! I was all like ughhhh whyyy u know... But I ended up going and picking out 2 outfits for James and he paid and i laughed at him... and we picked out his shoes.. That day we actually brought AMANDA!! My sweetie!! Koz she's crippled.. So we were running her around in a ""WHEEL CHAIR WE RENTED!!"" aha that was great seriously... But yea anyways, I work tonight @ 5pm with Deanna. And tomorrow night with Alisha, But i start @ 4pm. I turned in my application yesterday for the Tanning Salon. And they said they'll probably call me back! *Crosses fingers!* I really want another job.. Just because.. I dont get enough hours at my job @ Genesis. So i figured I could book up my weekdays! So it'll work. So yesterday was our last day of exams also.. I was so excited! I had all of my books in Prestons locker, and their was a book line all the way up the staircase from our 1st floor cafeteria.. So me and Preston just went up to Boy Blue for an hour then went back and nobody was really in the line.. Aha it worked. Amanda got in trouble @ BB for smoking and the cop told her to just go home... Alright I hand it to him he wuz pretty cool for not giving her a ticket, but he's bogus for telling her to go home. That's okay though. Lately I realize I really need a friend, I mean like somebody I can confide in, because I really dont have anybody but my cousin. I haven't talked to john in 2 weeks, and im coming to the conclusion that our relationship isnt going to work, especially koz he's 18 and has pothead friends.. He's never around and now he has no reason to be home so he's always gone. I mean that's why i havent talked to him in 2 weeks. And I thought about it and said to myself, "Well he's 18 you usually take some freedom when u turn it..." yeah but then came to realization that GUYS who have GIRLFRIENDS would be spending their new aging with their girlfriends and would stay over there all night instead of at a party or smoking it up most likely.. I mean he hasnt even **CALLED**... So that's totally bogus, so I guess our time is going to be up... Its was alrighty while it lasted, but hey its just gods way of showing me where my place is and where these men stand in my life.. Men come and go, and i guess friends do alsoo.. Life is about change, and my life in the past 2 years has been changed dramatically. It was a shocker, but I'm dealing with it. I feel as if im telling a life story when I say these things.. Because truthfully I am. Ive been hurt all my life by stupid and inconsiderate people. And just now im learning how to deal with them in a different way. Im glad I can find these differences now on my own. Im totally learning to be independant, and Im starting to love it... "Hate it or love it the underdogs on top"