*~*I'll tear my heart open, I'll sell myself short.. My weakness is that I care TOO MUCH. As the skys remind us that the past is real.. I tear myself open, just to feel..*~* I don't like playing Varsity considering that I'm at the bottom when I'm on that team. Think about it, you go from JV highest.. To being Varsity's lowest.. That sucks, so I think I'm going to just tell Owens that I don't wanna play Varsity for this year, and we will see what next yr brings us. I don't get along with those people. And last night I sat on the sidelines the whole game because I was at the bottom of the food chain.. And I was the only person. Yeah that made me feel like shit. And soccer shouldn't make me feel like shit. So on the bus back you know what Owens said to me?? "Stephanie, I didn't play you koz I thought they would be too fast for you".. I didnt say anything.. and he sat in the seat in front of me.. I had a seat alone like normal, and it was nighttime.. so I cried. Well I got home, tore up my anger and flipped out to my mom. She listened, she really is a good listener when she wants to be. But yea then I was ready to go to sleep and John called me. MY SAVIOR! :-) He made me feel happy, because I told him my stories.. And he praised me so well that he made me so flippin comfortable! Damn him! lol. Hehe i love him. Anyways I'm going to JV's Pizza party up at Capri today! Woo whoo Italiano pizza! :-) And then later on at like 8pm I'm going to John's baseball game. :-D I can't wait. I love watching baseball now! IT's fuckin awesum! But yea yeaaa i'll type sum in 1st hour prolli today.. lol... Oh yea and I got kicked out in Algebra yesterday... hehe i'll explain latah! - <3 me -