I turn 18 in 11 days. I feel everything should be ok after that; I should be happy I'm an adult, legally. My dad should be nicer, my stepmom should be more of a friend instead of a babysitter. My life should be different. But It won't be. I know things don't change like that. I'm still going to get in trouble for petty stuff, I'm still going to have to focus on schoolwork until I graduate. I'm still going to have to obey. If nothing more, I will have to uphold the responsibilities of being an adult as well as being a teen. I need to graduate, I still have to sign up for scholarships and grants, on my own time. I have to figure out my near future, while still keeping a relationship and gaining more abilities as an 18 year old. No more child play. No more irresponsibility. No more sleeping in. No more back talk. No more being bad. I have to show I'm going to be a good adult. I have to start on a completely new slate. So I'm going to be deleting anything reminding me of my previous years. Starting with the oldest entries on sitd.