what's with the new link on the top? I don't like strange links. they hurt me

I'll make you a deal... I'll do my best to be nothing but hurtful And then you can beat me to a little pulp. Crash Crash Crash Now Burn

time to infect... i'll be like a virus.. annoying and makes you throw up

the biggest new shit is that i'm a slut. Oh wait that's not new. And i hate it i like how my friends include me in their drama and not their get togethers... "label" Socail Outcast

boys suck

I think he's going to break it off but that's okay. I'm only going to cry for the next week and we all know how fun that can be. I plan on dying before the age of 23.... Then at least people will look back and say..."what a shame" Then my life will be a shame. Doesn't that sound nice. Maybe if enough people think i'm pretty i'll be like Marilyn Monroe and then i'll forever be a monument of shamefull waste of beauty... But if Marilyn Monroe didn't die so young no one would have thought about that.... It's all the what if....

did you know that the possibilty of the world being happy is about the same percentage of the idea that time will stop.. it could happen. There's a girl in my class that hates me... i like this source of entertainment i shall have to twist more words.. more impending doom

call me crazy if you must I just like to bother people even myself

it amazes me that some people will just think that somebody's changed... People Don't Change. It's as simple as that. Jerks will be jerks, Cheaters are going to cheat, Liars are going to hide, and the ones that hide in holes aren't going to emerge. the only thing that will change a person is something tragic in their lives. like seeing someone die, or a near death expirence, or maybe a heartbreak. Otherwise the person has no reason to stop. Love isn't going to change anyone. Love may be a persuader... but it sucks at it. if a person changes. it won't be willingly

i'm not never on this any more.... meh my most recent thing i can think about is how my ex and i made out in the doorway.... bet his girlfriend still doesn't know. Maybe the little lady will figure it out

Wow... This Diary thing is changing...special... i guess what ever... my eye feels funny

yeah... so i've noticed something about this diary.... i only write in it... when i don't want to talk about it... but i still want to.... make sense? Or just went i want to talk my love life... ha ha ha single....now... but in the past week i've been kissed three times... all in different places.... ha ! funny boys. can't everyone just be happy? seriously... lets ignore all life's problems

i could complain that no one ever reads this because lets face it... no one does. I'll leave something on here for months and i'll get like three hits so... i'm just going to stop pretending, and just write when i want to. Or just when i feel like kicking someone's butt.. that works too. I'm proud of my self. I didn't cut. I resisted! Even though i only did it because of that promise i made to that ass.... but hey what can you do. If you break a promise then what can you expect from yourself, and others. Tex, Jared, Crow, can be added to my list of admirerirs.

Yeah so... that ass is out of my life now... but now i really want to cut. But i can't because i promised the first ass that i wouldn't ever do that agian. But i want to take it back... i wish i could take back alot of things. A kid in the hall yelled at me... then he asked what grade i was in. Then proceeded to say that i had a nice ass... i said thanks and then walked away making sure that i moved alot doing so... then i only felt guilty again. meh i didn't even recognize him. If i see him again, i'll be sure to include some comment of my own... that sounds fun.

I'm getting bored of my layout maybe i'll change it... then againg maybe i won't i don't log on as much as i used to.. Last Saturday...Bad mojo...I decided after my last entry i was going to clean up some of my act. But that kid almost made me forget and totally lose it

i'm such a bad girl. After spending the day with this one kid who i was sure had a crush on me. I go to a Drama socail and suddenly i'm in a dark corner with another kid that i didn't know liked me until he couldn't keep his eys off me. He called me pretty. This is one of those guys that you see whistling at cheerleaders and then call them hot. But he didn't call me hot. He called me pretty...it's a step up then Hot... yeah. He's a cool kid. I'm wondering though if he just wanted comfort, he wasn't having a very happy moment until he kissed me... hmmm.. Oh well... I'll see what happens tomorrow.

he snuck in my window last night. It felt good. But now i go into my doubting phase. oh well... One thing i hate to say..."me too" Think about it. this is probably the most common form of uncreativity. When you say "me too" you imply that you agree completly to what ever that person says and that doesn't really work because how often do we have the exact same feelings about anything? and lets not forget that it sounds so blah about it and it's awkward to say the least. Or maybe things like that don't matter? I don't think i really care anymore.

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating... ...and you finish off as an orgasm."

So buddy, has just hooked up with another girl. And he left a mess of distruction in his wake. And it hurts the most knowing that he told me that he'd never lose his love for me. But i guess when he told a girl to break up with her boyfriend, so they could be together only to leave the ex confused. Buddy? why did you do that? Did you like her even before we broke up? Why do i hurt so much? I don't like you anymore, but to think that you said that you'd never leave me...it hurts... almost as bad as it hurt to have the asshole in my life

sigh... i think i'm bipolor... or maybe i'm just insane Or maybe i'm just stupid or maybe i'm just waiting or maybe i'm just tired or maybe i'm just wrong or maybe i still feel alone even in the crowds.... yeah that's it I decided something....i love T I asked him if he believed in love at first sight...he looked me straight in the eyes and smiled, the way only he can...and he whispered...yes, after all it happened to me....with you.... I kissed him after that. I miss him.... he makes me forget all my problems with school and i feel at home with him...and i can stand his family... they're great...