the decision i made was definitely the best one i've made in a long time. this weekend, besides the beginning of friday night, i finally just felt good. about myself, about the majority of my life, and it's just been a huge sigh of relief. i can make my own decisions without feeling guilty or like i'm going to be harrassed about it, and that's amazing to feel that for the first time in a year. i got to relax all weekend, without feeling like i'm missing out on anything, because i know i'm not. good things. i'm ready to move on with my life. :)