i've seriously never been through so many emotions in such a short span of time, and it's bothering me so bad. i really feel like i'm not in control of myself at times lately. i think it's due to the amount of stress i put on myself for prom. i just wanted everyone in my group to have an awesome time, and especially John. it might seem like i didn't do much to have so much stress about it, but you have no idea. i was responsible for over $1000 for 2 limos, and obviously with 2 limos i could only be inside of one of them. and of course, the other limo i wasn't in snuck in a bottle of alcohol after i told them i would be ass raped with a $1000 fine if we got caught with it. it just reinforced the fact that the people i know are so fucking disrespectful, it's ottrocious. (i dont know know how to spell that word by the way) on top of all of it, prom was a fucking BUST. the AC in our limo broke, we were smashed together when it was supposed to fit 14 people, we were all fighting on the way to dinner, we were too late to dinner, we sat on the couches for almost the entire prom, i didnt win prom queen, and john and i basically just fell asleep as soon as we got back to the hotel. the only good part of the night was slow dancing with john, because it was so romantic and corny haha yesterday we went shopping and out to dinner, then i took a nap back here at my house because i was soo exhasuted. we went down to his town to go bowling with his friends but i was still exhausted beyond words so i just left. but when he walked me out to my car i balled my eyes out for like 20 minutes for literally no reason. and ive been snapping on everyone so bad. its like i honestly cant control it, but i think its gonna go away soon. i think it was just after not sleeping all week, and being beyond stressed, i just need a break from every human being. i have 2 days left of highschool, pretty crazy. im excited, i think this summer will be fun. at least i HOPE. i havent hung out with people in a long time, but i think we'll all start hanging out more now that we don't have school. life is so weirrrrd.!