I've been home since Friday and I have been trying to call my friend Paul so we can get together. Now, I find out he's in the hospital. I'm going back to school today. I don't know if I should stay and visit him or whether he doesn't want to see me... He didn't tell me he was there. I love him. I've known him since we were 11 or 12. He's a big part of my life. I wanted him to be ok. But I'm scared to visit him. What if he doesn't want me there? I don't know what I should do. I need a cigarette!!!