I don't know. I'm so messed up. This guy back home (who always hits on me) wants me to go to the Cape with him. And I want to go. And I think it would be fun to be taken out. Trust me it's been awhile!!! But I love Josh. and also the kid from back home wants to come up and visit and stay a few days. Which means sleeping over. Is it really weird that I feel like I'd be cheating on Josh even though he doesn't even know I like him? I am so stupid. I should just go have a good time with Doug and see what happens. So I'm going home on Sat. Seeing my friend's show then I'm coming back to Albany on Sunday to work and go to school on Monday then I'm going back home on Monday night, and I have to be back in Albany by Thursday morning to dog sit for Collette's mom. It's acually not fair, this whole dog sitting thing. I said I'd do it, but I thought it was going to be in July. They didn't even tell when they were going until this morning. and now Collette's mom is like "well... do you really have to go home?" I'm like "yeah". But while I dog sit Josh will be there too, to help out. I'm so mixed up. That would be 6 day's alone with Josh. What's a girl to do?