Everything is falling apart around me, my friends hate me, my great gradpa just died and im goin 2 kansas to the funeral, ive never been to one before ive never seen someone whos dead and i have never known anyone who has ever died. Now i feel so angry, angry at my friends angry at my grandpa angry at..... myself. my friend ciera who i thought i could trust and tell things to has abandoned me i never thought she would say the things she did. i cant b friends with them again, not like i used to they hurt me so bad, i cried because they were the only people keeping me alive, now i would just rather die and save myself the pain