My life is an insane whirlwind right now. I broke up with Josh 2 weeks ago, and after thinking he just didn't care, I ran to someone else. Just now, when I am finally starting to feel happy again, Josh comes around begging me to take him back. It's like I can't do anything for myself. I can't do anything remotely selfish without feeling incredibly guilty or hurting someone else. I don't know about the future, but I know right we shouldn't be together. I don't want him right now. I spent a long time miserable in our relationship. I stuck around because I knew he would be happy. Now the only way to heal his pain is to go back to him which would only hurt me again. I'm happy again for the first time in a long long time. Why does this always have to come at such a price?