The weather is fucking horrible today. It's been like this since probably 5 in the morning, storming as though the world is ending. It's not that bad, but it does suck. I hate storms. It's day like this that I, *gulp* kinda miss Josh. I remember when we would actually sleep together before we grew apart. When it would start storming at 6 in the morning I would cuddle up really close to him and tell him I was scared. He would hold me close and tell me I was stupid and there is nothing to be afraid of and I'd fall right back to sleep. I miss that. I don't have that anymore. I couldnt call my boyfriend because, well, because he's lame. He forgot to charge his phone so I called him like 6 freakin times. I should mention I was a wreck last night. I couldnt calm down for anything. I was on the phone with him last night and we were talking about mother's day and I told him I missed my mom and started crying. I told him to call me later and I didnt hear from him the entire night. He told me he'd stop by Papa Johns tonight and give me a "huge hug" to help me feel better. Of course thats utter crap because he might have to bowl tonight. He's great. He tells me if I need him he'll be there for me. Of course, by that he means he'll be over the phone telling me he "misses me" and "wishes" he could be there to hold me when actually being here doesnt seem like that huge of a fucking feat. I'm just really upset over that idiot. He can stir some of the most ridiculous emotions in me. I dont know what the hell to do. I hope everybody who has a mom still has a happy mother's day. Don't ever forget to show your mom you love her, because you never know when that'll be taken away from you.