I talked to James last night. He helped bring a lot of the things that have happened into some kind of perspective. Sure, it blows. I'm not sad over Jason anymore, but I'm not really angry either. I kind of feel bad. There is no excuse for his behavior. I should not try to excuse anyting he did or said. I just feel like had the whole Vance/Taryn thing never been brought up, none of this would have happened and we could have been friends. Now I'd be surprised if he doesn't run the opposite way if we ever see eachother again. What it all boils down to is we were on two completely different levels emotionally. He was the seal looking up at the seagull and he couldn't deal with the fact that he couldn't fly. Thats a stupid analogy, but it makes sense. The relationship was bad, I wish I could have understood at the time what he was talking about when he said he "can't get close to people". He never "just liked me as a friend and nothing more", that was just him trying to rebuild his ego. He couldn't connect to me emotionally and that made him angry. It was doomed from the beginning for this reason, and Iwasn't happy. I just wish it didn't have to end this way. That just sucks. But whatever. Goodbye Jason. I don't have to be totally alone, thank god.