He's amazing. He just is. He looks amazing, he smells amazing, he feels amazing. He amazes me. And now he's mine. And now not unlike my father I am able to forget and move on regardless of how anyone else might feel. Am I heartless? Or did I just choose to stay and try to fix something that maybe couldn't have been fixed. I was miserable for far too long, I was hanging on by a thread. And now Josh is feeling the tremendous loss. I might someday in the future give him another chance once he's grown up, until then I have found happiness in the form of this amazing guy.