Ok. This goes out to anyone who has been involved in this fucking soap opera. First of all, I'd like to apologize for the "crap" I've been talking. I guess that makes me just as low as you guys. Actually, I don't guess. I know it does. So, I apologize for that. But, I must say, I am still not impressed with any of you. I have known that you've been reading this site for some time now. Why do you think I wrote what I wrote? I knew you were going to read it. I wanted you to read it. I wanted you both to know exactly how I felt about what was going on. JOE - As far as saying things to your face goes, it's your fault that I won't say it to your face. If my memory serves me correctly, you're the one who threw my clothes away and told me that you didn't want to see me, much less talk to me. I left out all of the curse words, of course. So why should I speak to your face? You specifically told me not to. That's not my fault. I am not to blame there. If you want to know how I feel, and you want to hear it directly from me, I will tell you. I don't want to argue, I don't want to fight. I'm really sorry that things turned out the way they did. I want you to know that I am not trying to take your daughter away from you. But, if she is going to leave home, I'm not going to let her stay just anywhere. My parents are very fond of Jennifer and will not let anything happen to her. She is just like family to all of us. She is more than welcome to talk to you on my cellphone, by the way. I don't mind a bit. I want you and Jennifer to remain close, you two have a great parent-kid relationship. I wish I could have had that kind of relationship with my Dad while I was growing up. She loves you more than anything in this world, and that includes me. I would never ask her to choose me over you. That just isn't right. And Joe, I want you to know, that contrary to popular belief, I did NOT cheat on your daughter. She makes me happy, and I am completely satisfied with out relationship. I know that you probably won't believe me, and this won't do any good, but atleast I am trying. I can't make you believe me. All I can do is tell what I know is the truth. I know what I have done, and that's all that I can really say. If you can forgive me, that's all that I ask you for. I'm sorry for anything out of the way that's happened in the past. I'm over it, and ready to forget about it. I won't bother you anymore, you won't have to see me, but I will bring Jennifer over to see you any and I mean ANY time she wants to see you. If you need her, you can also call her at my house. I hope maybe one day things will be better. CAROL- As far as I'm concerned, you don't deserve to talk to me. You have lied about me continuously for some time now, just because you don't like me and don't want your daughter to be with me. You didn't have the balls to come straight out and tell me like Joe did. Atleast he was man enough to come and tell me himself, instead of filling his daughters head full of bullshit to try and get her away from me. I wouldn't be acting the way I am now if you hadn't provoked it. Don't try and put it all on me. Yes, I am at fault in some instances, just like everyone else. But I am not the problem here. The problem is, you tried to deal with your problems the wrong way. You don't know anything about me, you don't have any "people", and no one you know is watching me. If they are, you're not very bright, because that is conspiracy, and it is very illegal. Another reason I haven't said things to your face is, you live 5 hours away. You don't have to be the head cashier at Wal-Mart to figure that one out. I have no respect for you whatsoever. I really thought you were a better person than that. It honestly hurts my feelings that you lied about all those things to Jennifer. Please don't try it anymore, because it won't work. Oh, and by the way, you say it's not about me, it's about what Jennifer wants. Well, that's all good and true, but again, hypocritical, because if you really believed that, you wouldn't get on to her for being with me. She WANTS to be with me. Ask her. I'm sure she will tell you the same thing. I do not twist her arm. I gave her the choice between Craig and I. It is up to her to make that decision. She chose me, and you're just going to have to get over it. Just because you like Craig better doesn't mean she has to. Sorry about your luck. VAL - Ok. This is a doozy. I don't know what your problem is. You are involved in this in no way, shape or form. I'm not sorry that I talked shit to you. You deserved every word of it. You need to keep your nose out of my business. You only have to go by what Carol is telling you, and quite simply, she is full of shit. She lies about me all the time. I know, because Jennifer tells me. Carol is never around to know about anything that goes on, she supposedly has "people" that watch me and blah blah blah blah. If you believe what she's telling you, you have my sympathy, because you're a fool. But of course, it's your aunt Carol, so you have a definite biased opinion. You are not a part of mine and Jen's relationship, so stay out of it, please and thank you. If she wants to be with me, she'll be with me. If she doesn't, she'll leave me. It's all up to her. You should live your own life, and leave her to live her own. I really could care less what you think of me, or what you've heard about me. You don't pay my bills, and you've never done a thing for me. So who cares, ok? There's no use for you to poke around in places where you aren't familiar. Lonestar is working out quite well for me, by the way. Thanks for asking! What have you ever worked for in your life? Have you ever even had a job? You think my parents are filthy rich and pay for everything, give me money all the time, blah blah blah? If you think that, you're sadly mistaken. I don't take handouts. I don't need aunt Carol to hold my hand and lead me around, and pout every time she won't take me to the Omellette Shoppe and pay for my meal, so you can kiss my ass. And by the way, I never failed out of college. As a matter of fact, I still have a 3.17 cumulative GPA. I made grades in high school that make you look like a fucking idiot. I worked my ass off and got my college paid for. My parents had nothing to do with it. I have worked for every damn thing that I have. Until you know a little more about what you're talking about, just shut your fucking ugly ass mouth. Phew...now that I've said what I needed to say, I will speak no more of this. Please don't leave ignorant comments on my diary, because I will just delete them. I will not reply. I will not talk to you, or feed your ego. It's over. I'm over it. And, now I'm going to forget about it... Until the next time.... -Tom