Clap your hands! Stomp your feet! Fuck a dog in the ass! I mean...nevermind. How do you fare, well I hope? Several days have passed since I last typed an entry, and I sincerely apologize for this. I have honestly been really busy with work, and other things. Things we don't speak of around these parts! =) I really do believe that misery loves good company. It's been trying to get me to come visit for the past 2 years. I just keep turning it down, but it gets more persuasive and persistent with each day that passes. How do I get rid of this annoying little pest? I believe I have tried all of the conventional methods. Can anyone help me? No. No one can help me. This is a one man job. How can I keep forgetting? How can I be so stupid, to ask such a question? How do I rid myself of these dark and senseless thoughts? They spread through my mind, destroying it from the inside, out. Like a virus, ignorant to the destruction that it causes. The pain can only be supressed, it never goes away. It hides, in the deepest and darkest places inside of me. Pain is the only one who truly knows me. It understands me. Pain has become my companion. It is my motivation. No matter what happens, it will always be there. Why? Can anyone tell me? No. No one has the answer. Why do I even ask? Why am I even curious? Even if I knew the answer, would I ever actually understand? Should I even try? Where will my efforts take me? To a place that only I can see. That is where. I wonder when my next trip will be. Soon, I hope. Rage is my only emotion. With each second that goes by, it becomes more difficult to contain. I'm calling out to you... You are te only one that can save me... I must come to terms with myself... Until then...