I am so unhappy with myself that i even contemplated and told my boyfriend i wanted to break up. I just can't take the fact that im probably sucking the life and fun right out of him because he constantly has to worry about me and how im feeling i cant live like that. I also cant live with the fact that i am so fucked-up feeling on the inside. Or the fact that i have to cry to get through the day and cry just to get to sleep at night. I cant even enjoy the fact that i am now succeeding in life the way i always wanted to. I am just too fucked to even do anything anymore. It's so painful, and i dont know what the hell i did in life to make me suffer this bad. I don't know what anyone could do so bad in life to suffer like this. Death on my behalf would seem better than living like this. It's so self -destructing and it slowly kills me to have to live like this everyday.