So recently i've been re-evaluating my life and normally i feel like super woman. I normally can take on the world but not recently. I can't seem to take control of things. I feel like i have too much, too fast and too little time. I had broke up with the crazy ex-boyfriend of mine who was not only that but so fucking abusive it's scary. I don't know why the hell they released him from jail the day i put him there. But I digress. He had some very valuable property of mine, but throughthe mess of leaving him and wanting to leave so badly i forgot about it for a breif moment and i regret that to this day. I actually have to file a small claims court case to get it back from him. He kept fucking with me claiming he'd give it back and then would be rude and pretty much just give me a big fuck you. I realize now the game he is playing at. That piece of property is the only thing that keeps me talking to him and he knows it. So now im finally taking the control i should have when I didn't have the power to stand up to him. I will not be ignored and i will not be toyed with by a child who thinks he is a man. I will lay everything out on the table so not only will i get back what is rightfully mine but i will also have the closure i never got so i can finally be freed of the negativity that clouds me. I also need to look for college. Somewhere not so expensive. I want my Phd in Forensic/mortuary science. But lets cut through the old crap cake i know its going to be expensive just because of the degree i want but i want some place that'll be less expensive than normal. I need a job too because im slowly going morally bankrupt here. It's just not kosher to me. Even if its a part-time job, it's 20 hours i didnt have before. The reason i dont have a job is because i got fired from the one i had before as a tattoo artist. And this new job i want requires a driver's license which i also dont have and need to get soon before the position closes. It's the only job that'll pay me 10.25 an hour without a college education. and i really want it. However the job i do want might not happen because my boyfriend wants me to move in with him. In Massachusetts. I live in Connecticut. Not a far travel about an hour and 20 minutes but there is nothing binding me to connecticut because i dont go to school i dont have a job.. but he has things binding him to Massachusetts so im willing to move. but i need some money. I fi can get a job here there might not be a problem. I also need a vehicle to transport myself back and forth to work. Im in the process of that now but it definatley needs a little work on the manifold, drivers seat, and the odor that is in there. i think its mildew or something (lol). So in conclusion feeling a little overwhelmed and tired but i gotta do it. because i dont want my life in shambles.