i am heaven sent. dont you dare forget. i am all youve ever wanted. what all the other boys all promised. sorry i told. i just needed you to know. i think in decimals and dollars. i am the cause to all your problems. shelter from cold. we are never alone. coordinate brain and mouth. then ask me whats it like to have myself so figured out. i wish i knew... i hope this song starts a craze. the kind of song that ignites the airwaves. the kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are with whoever theyre there with. this is war. every line is about who i dont wanna write about anymore. hope you come down with something they can't diagnose. dont have the cure for. holding on to your grudge. oh its so hard to have someone to love. and keeping quiet is hard. cuz you cant keep a secret if it never was a secret to start. at least pretend you didnt wanna get caught.. were concentrating on falling apart. we were contenders were throwing the fight i was just wanna believe i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, in us. were so c-c-c-c-c-controversial. we are entirely smooth. we admit to the truth. we are the best at what we do. and these are the words you wish you wrote down. this is the way you wish your voice sounds. handsome and smart. oh my tongues the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart. and its all from watching tv. and from speeding up my breathing. wouldnt stop if i could. oh it hurts to be this good. youre holding on to your grudge... oh it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love. so let it go... i was just wanna believe. i just wanna believe. i just wanna believe... in us... this is the grace that only we can bestow. this is the price you pay for loss of control. this is the break in the bend. this is the closest of calls. this is the reason your alone. this is the rise and the fall. --------------------------------------------- she hits the lights. this doesnt seem quite fair. despite everything he learned from his friends he doesnt feel so prepared. shes breathing quiet and smooth. hes gasping for air... "This is the first and last time," he says. She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his. He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides. Hes holding back from telling her exactly what it really feels like. he is the lamb. she is the slaughter. shes moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her. nothing that he tells her is really having an effect. he whispers that he loves her but she's probably only looking for... so much more than he could ever give. a life free of lies and a meaningful relationship. he keeps his hands pinned down at his sides. he waits for it to end and for the aching in his guts to subside...