recently things have been kind of crapy. just to say the least. im almost 18. and i think my party might be good. im looking forward to it. i went to church today. (wearing my re-used name tag.) (still have it on) that was pretty sweet. christian was there. sweet action. i collected name tags and passed out invitations. "look. its an invitation." then we went out to eat lunch @ o' charlies. almost didnt make it there because my car spun out it was a good thing that a crazy biker/runner guy came to my rescue. christian and i just laughed. then i went home and cleaned (what else is new?) and then i went over to christians. christian got me a SCAPER. is that how you spell it? not a squeedgie. im glad i have a real one now. not some poser. pshh *brushes off shoulders. i just want to say thanks to the few people who stand by me (i know its hard) and understand me or at least try to. thank you for helping me get through the tough times that i have to struggle with. i love you guys.