this day sucks. the only reason this day was created was to give guys a big reminder to thank their wife for putting up with their shit. this day is ONLY great when you have someone. which in my case it seems as if this "holiday" will forever suck. no its not just another monday its a dumb ass reminder that i dont have anybody. while everybody else is out having fun with their significant other im here thinking about all of the reasons why people dont want to be with me. and the list just gets longer and longer. no this entry isnt supposed to be a pitty for the lonely ass courtney this entry is just a reminder that im alone on yet another holiday why does valentines make you think of all your past relationships? im sittin here thinking about some really bad boy friends but then there is one that i cant seem to get out of my head. some of you wouldnt even consider us as being boyfriend and girlfriend but i do and i REGRET what i did. i really realize exactly how much i messed things up this time... i know you wont even read this and you probably wont even think that im writing this about you so why am i even bothering? if you made it this far to the enrty... congrats to you because this is all a bunch of pointless shit that makes up my life. blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...