the future has got me worried. such awful thoughts. my head is a carousel of pictures the spinning never stops. i just want someone to walk in front and Ill follow the leader. like when i fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush. i started carrying his books and doing lots of drugs. i almost forgot who i was. but i came to my senses. now i try to be assertive. imm making plans. i want to rise to the occasion. meet all of their demands. but all i do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers. I KNOW I SHOULD BE BRAVE but im just AFRAID of all this change... its hard to focus through all this doubt. i keep making "to do" lists but nothing ever gets crossed out. IM NOT AS STRONG AS I THOUGHT... so when im lost in a crowd. i hope that youll pick me out. Oh, how i long to be found. the grass grew high. i laid down. now wait for a hand to lift me up. help me stand. i have been laying so low. dont want to lay here no more... BUT IF EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IS SUPPOSED TO BE AND IT IS PREDETERMINED YOU CANT CHANGE YOUR DESTINY. then i guess ill just keep MOVING and SOMEDAY MAYBE ill get to where im going... nothing gets crossed out by: bright eyes