i thought that christian, marisha, peter, kathy, noel, nychole, ashley, and britney were going to come over tonight and hang out. christian couldnt come over because his parents wouldnt let him. peter wanted to watch the football game. marisha wanted to watch the football game with him. kathy and noel ditched me to go hang out with ian. nychole never called me back. ashley ditched me to go hang out with her brother. britney isnt answering her phone. i hate wanting people to come over because they never do. i know my house sucks and its boring but the least you could do is call me back or answer your phone. i hope my birthday party doesnt end up like this. it wouldnt suprise me if it did. i remember my new years party. i was in the 8th grade. i invited alot of people. my mom said i could only have 50 people over. so i quickly filled up the list with 50 of my friends. new years eve rolled around. not ONE person showed up. not one. this just shows how much of a worthless human being i really am. i told you nobody would care if i died. i know it was just a party and it was in the 8th grade but when people lie to me and tell me that they are going to do something with me and then go out of there way to make other plans to not be with me really just fucking sucks ass. dont even bother showing up for my funeral.