9:08 AM so i know that i moved back home so i could have no distractions or influences in making a decision about my marriage..but i think i only found more distractions here. its early morning and ive already made some plans today. my good friend carley (who is pregnant right now) is coming to hang out with me some time soon, and i think my best friend keli (who ALSO happens to be preggo!) will probably come over as well. and we'll all talk about our bullshit and ill probably cry. yuck. but even distractions cant help you avoid reality. i need some god damn answers. like now. shane is watching tv, content as can be. aw to be a child. id give anything for that now. i should get in the shower, i need to get cleaning and get my things sorted out in the guest room! looks like a tornado occurred. arrrrggghhh. i need to smoke some weed. maybe then ill feel some relief. haha. alright..let the day begin!