12:46 PM work is so fucking boring. I don't want to be here, and I have such a bad headache. ughhhh. well, good news is, my mom and I had a really good heart to heart yesterday. I told her how I was feeling, and the main reason for doug and I's separation. and she made a lot of sense with her opinion. she was like , "well a straight person would not be dealing with these feelings and emotions" and I told her she was right. and she said, " I love you and support you no matter what..and you need to just not give a fuck about what anyone thinks about you!" then she smiled and gave me a huge hug. haha, my mom fucking rocks. I love her so much. she told me this morning that she didn't tell me dad about our conversation last night, and I could tell him if I wanted. but I really don't feel like explaining it all over again. it was hard enough the first time! even though, my parents have known for about 5 years that I have liked women. so its nothing new. but the fact that I think I am completely gay rather than bisexual has never really been seriously discussed. sooo its all about support and love. and loving yourself enough to live out your own truth no matter what anyone thinks. its all about happiness in the end. and we are the only ones who have control of that. its time to start living this life for me.