well i guess everyone knows what happened to eric. me, tristin, morgan, and kevin went down there to see how he was. we were planning to hang out after but we couldnt just leave him. i ended up staying there till like 12. i guess im kinda glad i didnt go to homecoming. he would've been a pretty lonely guy. it still hard to think about how everyone else is having a blast though. i really am just waiting for something good to happen. i cant think of anything thats actually going good at the moment. family life stinks, friends are all right i guess, girls...we all know how that is. i have my ups and downs. people have been asking me if there's something wrong, i guess there is...but its nothing to dwell on or talk to anyone about. i dont seem that different to myself though. its probably cause i know whats going on. ya thats probably it. ill get better though. eventually. i need to take a break from the world. ill get myself out of this slump.