i just really dont know anymore. ya things dont go my way. whats new? it kills me. i dunno how to stop it, i dunno how to make it better. its just the worst feeling to want something so bad, and know that you cant have it. its so much better to just not know what you want. that way you cant be let down. no one gets hurt. im just lost. i dont know where my life is leading me to. and there's no one there helping me through. can't just someone tell me what i should do. i hate it when the smallest things can bring u down but it takes so much more to pick u back up. so what do i do now? im lost.