question asked by all "why do we have to feel loved and love?" this has no answer. i too have asked that question many times. most of all why do we have to feel? one answer i have gotten and come up with is that we can grow but why does one have to grow that way. why cant we grow like plants. all we need is water and sunlight why do we need darkness to get the fool growth of something. do we always have to shead blood to find happyness do i always have to shed blood. why is it my life and my personaly seems so big and beautiful on this screen on this journal. is this the true me that iam keeping from everyone i meet. iam i just a blanket to keep everyone warm while in the prosses makeing myself cold. am i the grass that gets steped on just to provide confort for a pear of naked feet to walk with out the fear of broses. or iam i the feet that step on others. all these question i asked myself every min of the day to only find depresstion growing with in them. i wast my time thinking about things that i shouldnt be thinking of. why do it do it when i know its not healthy. the only thing the provides me warmth and happyness is my art and someone elses creative music. im sad to say im falling again im afraid of going under in pain i can no longer fight these humans will i ever get through this stage of not knowing? maybe