i miss childish things. like swiming pools and the faiseweels. im good right now i wonder how long it will last. thursday im going to the movies with jon as friends and i hope i dont hate myself for going i think i need to still have contact with him. so its 5 in the morning and i have grown to have my old habit of summer. which is to go out side in the morning and enjoy what most people dont. but this morning is diffrent then last summers mornings because it made me feel comfort in whats around me. i just been thinking alot about those clouds this morning like i was desribing to dear nick they sort of look like pirate ships on cardboard water and the great thing is the leaves off the trees move along with them sort of like they are on the ships dancing. some people just dont notice such things. and some times i feel like being diffrent is bad sometimes for there noone out there that similar. so you cant really share it with anyone else. mybe im just meet to have good mornings. and the days well they are not so good to me. well i guess ill be seeing 5 oclock in the mornings more often. tell then its about time i sleep for i will not be tired when im at work.